Nothing has changed, and I've done everything the Red Pill Asks.

I've been a long-time lurker. I've read all the books, I've done all the missions, I've always been a natural joke. I get girls attention I can bang girls and I am so sick and tired of it because there is no connection that I feel that I have with any girl or anyone.

I have my weights that bring my down, a bit of heart break from my ex, but I've moved on and have become so much better off and have got a great job at a great company, I play and get paid to play the sport I love, but I still feel… depressed. Things get me down easily and deep down I am not happy. That's all I want deep inside - happiness. Whatever the fuck that is.

This Friday, for the first time in a while I clicked with this girl, we joked, we laughed, we were with one another and we had a great click. Everyone thought we were together for a long time, by the end of the night we were holding hands - kissing, I was actually excited. I have NO idea - NONE, I may have showed one sign of insecurity saying 'you don't talk much on text do you' and the next day 'asked what she was up to' first thing in the morning to see if we can meet - and she hasn't replied to my message. All day I have wanted to text again, but I haven't, she hasn't even opened the message but she's been online - and I don't get it, because for the first time since my ex of two years ago I genuinely thought, fuck this girl and I click. Should I message again or leave it.

My point is, I don't know what the fuck im going to do in life right now, I earn good money, im decent looking, im just… unhappy.