Physically, I was attractive. So much so she actually told me I looked like a model.

Personality wise, I was still growing into myself.

Mentally and emotionally, I had to be the most blue pilled bastard there ever was.

To put things simply, I showed my emotions so much that I reduced myself to a groveling piece of trash. It wasn't that I cried and sputtered whenever I was around her, it's just that I was always pussyfooting, showing too much vulnerability, and explaining myself too goddamm much.

It wasn't the worst situation you'll read on this sub, but it was bad enough to slink away in shame after learning of rp principles.

She removed me on IG, said it was an accident, but never added me back. Come to find out, she's also unfriended me on Facebook.

She was always super polite to my face, but I realized she just didn't consider me that important. Or important at all to that matter.

I'm a very different person now. Not only mentally and emotionally, having matured quite a bit and learned the ins and outs of the sexual marketplace, but also physically. I still get told I look like a model, but I'm too inches taller and twenty lbs buffer than the last time she saw me.

Should I reconnect with her? I mean, I don't need to, but I want to see if I she'll view me different or if I can turn around my past mistakes. And not gonna lie, I look forward to a badass "look at me now" moment.