So, i'm not really sure what to do or say at this point but as the title states, i'm currently in a rut that I can't seem to get out of. Some background, my name is Mostafa, i'm 22 years old and currently live in Egypt (I know, pretty random). I don't want to turn this into a sob story but right now, I don't know where else to go. I came across become a man via TRP and it's been good to me. My father hasn't been around for the majority of my life, so a lot of life lessons about becoming a man, I had to learn for myself. I just got out of a 5 year, abusive relationship inwhich I believe I developed a form of stockholm syndrome. Not to mention that I also just left my job and as of right now, i'm slowly becoming a waste of space. All I want to do is sleep, the urge of interacting with other people has fled and any ounce of motivation that i've had, has also flown away. There's also a lot of stuff going on that slowly can eat away at a person that I wont get into. I want to be strong again, I want to be interesting again but I don't know where to start. What books to read, what to work on and how to work on it. I'm here turning to you, reddit for help because with how things are, i'm not quite sure how much deeper i'll fall into this pit without guidance.