so im 18, living on my own (have been for 2 years) and am really struggling. I just got fired from my job because I came late too many times (the hours were way too early) and am in a really shitty financial situation at the moment. I feel like everything in my life is shit. My mother is batshit insane and my father (who raised me) was an incompetent child and still is. None of my close friends live in the city I'm in right now. The only way I'm even paying my rent is through my side business (track 3 of exmilitary) and i hate it.

I don't even know what to even do. I have no guidance, no one to gain strength from. Is this okay? will I be okay? I haven't laughed in a month. I can't talk to any of my friends because I just can't loosen up any more. I can't make any friends because I feel like I can't relate to anyone I talk to or trust anyone. What do I do.