Little background on me, I'd consider myself pretty unplugged, I've been on TRP for some months now. Even before I found TRP I wasn't a complete sap/beta/idiot, but there were definitely some things that needed adjusting with my LTR game and my own self-improvement track.

I realise how if a guy doesn't stay on top of his game, he will ultimately get burned by a woman. I've been to hell and back with a girl and I'm pretty far down the road to recovery, I had the "fortunate" experience of dating a "good girl" (rollos definition of a good girl: http://therationalmale.com/2011/11/10/good-girls-do/) who was very sweet and charming, but also happened to be a complete psychopathic sociopath.

Her bullshit is what brought me to TRP, how she moved on effortlessly and went on to use other people, men and women, to get her emotional validation despite the culmination of our association being topped off by some effortless betrayal and grade A manipulation on her part (so naturally, I said fuck this and told her to fuckoff)

Now here's a question I have and it may be tough for most people to answer with any reasonable degree of accuracy other than, conjecture, but I'm going to ask anyway because it makes me curious. Despite realising how things are with women in general, I'm naturally a kind person and quite romantic when I really like a girl, you could say I enjoy being soppy and cute and all that "eugh" shit when I really like a chick. Now don't get confused here and tell me "you haven't swallowed the pill properly blah blah blah" I have. I know how to be an asshole, almost effortlessly, I don't have my heart on my sleeve I know the philosophy and I live a lot of it in my day to day interactions, but despite knowing it's bad/beta, naturally, I like to do cute things with a girl I really like, even though I know that's the quickest way to get fucked over because the girl will lose respect and start throwing shit tests.

Is being red pill aware and still harbouring romantic tendencies a paradox? I don't think I can unplug anymore, I can improve sure, but there's no other revelations that need revealing to my psyche, I understand the BS - I know how to attract girls, confident, aloof etc, but at the end of the day, in my heart of hearts on the inside, I'm a pretty sweet person and when I like someone a lot I like to help them, this means I'm a romantic with women whom I value (I don't value most women I meet past sex so it's rare, but when I do view a girl as more, it's very possible.)

Romanticism, is it a byproduct of blue pill brainwashing, an actual personality trait or what? If you're red pill aware and know you have a capacity to be romantic, what's your take on that? Seeing as romanticism is essentially equated as being weak/beta/needy.