It's only been a week, or two, since I've discovered about taking the pill. I am trying my very best to incorporate the new RP theories into my life. I know it takes a while because of being raised my whole life as a beta. I have been doing a decent amount of reading. Mainly from the sidebar, illimitablemen, and therationalmale. Keep in mind I'm still new, so these are probably nooby mistakes. I've made a post about this girl previously asking for help. I got some great advice, but I have not been able to utilize the advice due to this new problem. I'll sum it up quick so this post doesn't get too lengthy...

-Met girl through tinder at school. Meet up and talk to her for hours (beta).

-I tried to use kino, but only got as far as touching her hands and arms because we were at a cafe kind of thing.

-A LOT of IOIs.

-She texts me later that night telling me that her roommates think I'm extremely attractive and that they were asking her if I was fair play.

-We meet the next day. She brings me to her dorm with her roommate. Within 10 minutes we are making out on the couch and she is on top of me.

-I told her I had class earlier. She stops making out with me and tells me that I need to go to class. (It fucked with me that SHE was the one who ended the make out session. I should have ended it. Beta.)

-I ask her where she will be after my class and she says, "right here".

-I text her after my class ends all excited thinking I'm going to get laid. I text her.... No response...

-Finally she texts me back and says she is not at her room and she is with her friends. She said she needed to talk to them. I text her back telling her where I am... I wait there for like 20 minutes, no response. (I should have gone and found her with her friends. SHE TOLD ME WHERE THEY WERE. Sounds a little bit creepy to just show up uninvited though?)

Now here is where I think I fucked up..

-All of the sudden I get worried (Hamstering). I text her asking her if I was really that bad at making out that she didn't want to see me... (fucking so beta. I cringe thinking about this now.)

-She texts me saying something like, "Umm no? You weren't bad?". (I feel beta as hell).

-We text more that night and I kind of get my boundaries back. I tell her that we are hanging out after the weekend, and that "You haven't seen anything yet". She seems curious about it and I tell her, "Guess you will have to find out..".

-I don't text her all weekend, then finally text her today... She doesn't respond for hours. She's giving me one word texts...

-I ask her to hang out tomorrow. She just says, "Can't. Busy". I say something witty and she just agrees with it....

-I ask her to hang out later in the week. She doesn't respond. Hasn't responded. It's been like 7 hours.

I have a problem with getting attached to any girl who gives me anything more than a hug. It's my most beta, disgusting quality that makes me come off as needy and clingy.

When they don't text me back, or show less interest, I get extremely nervous and start asking them beta things like, "What's wrong??" "Do you not like me anymore??" "What did I do??"... Luckily I haven't said anything like that to her.

She is the first girl I know at this campus, and she knows a lot of the other hot girls. She is the key to me getting to know all her hot friends, and getting invited to the parties those girls are at... I know the idea of RP is abundance, but she has so much for me to gain. I'm getting attached to the idea of her as my plate, while I fuck her friends. It seems like I'm losing her though.

Should I just go radio silent if she doesn't respond? She seemed so interested... Is she playing games? My hamstering is bad. I really want to know what I did wrong.

Thank you for anyone who can ease my hamstering and give me some advice.