For some reason, I had a real strange few days, insecurity and so on showed its ugly head. Losing hope is easy, i for no reason in particular, perhaps on top of having the flu quite badly, just felt terrible.

I looked really deep at myself, trying to figure out why I had felt this way. It was a combination of insecurity, negative thinking, a whole host of bizarre emotions overtook me. I was sick of it.

Then I remembered reading Roosh's book Bang, in which he states something along the lines of "forget the old you. The beta you. The blue pill you. Don't look back and compare yourself to that guy. He is dead. You are a completely different person. Its a new alpha, red pill minded you."

I make this mistake all the time. I resort to old thinking. I doubt myself. I struggle to sometimes realize that I am now the man I want to be. Stuff like "not attractive enough" or "smart enough" or "strong enough to keep her interested." All these disgusting niggling insecurities would always return.

Remember as roosh says, those days are now over. I had to seriously look at myself deep, and realize I am no longer that guy at all. I am in better shape, I am wealthier, I am more successful, my image has changed and I am far more attractive.

So stop being the insecure guy you once were. You are now the man you always wanted to be.

Eliminate the people that still see you that way. Eliminate habits that can help you fall back into that trap (not going gym etc, laziness), you know the deal.

And remember, when those insecurities kick in, think like roosh says, its of a guy that no longer exists, he is now dead.