During my time that I've been working at my store I've seen cute girls come and go. 2 years ago, this girl, let's call her R, caught my attention. 19 year old (I'm 24 by the way) with a nice butt that bounced when she walked, and hips that swayed back and forth. She was cute but I could tell she was sheltered. I would catch her looking at me and even though it's shitting in the very place I ate, I couldn't help myself.

I got her number and she was instantly flirty and touching my tattoos. I got home and she added me on facebook and what's this...she has a boyfriend (apparently she thought I still had a girlfriend). Well I didn't care because I didn't know the guy.

A week later we were hanging out. Now I just got out of a relationship and even though I would label myself as a beta 2 years ago, because I was so bitter about girls because of the shit relationship I just got out of, I came off as didn't care and had nothing to lose. I kept making sexual remarks, showing my confidence through body language and touching, and next thing I know she's sucking my dick in the front seat of her car. This was the first among many sexual encounters for her and I.

Now at first I had to work a bit to get this girl to come over and do anything. The most that happened for awhile was her sucking my dick and jerking it and that's it. For some reason we quit talking and she came back a couple months later. Of course the playing around continues and she's back to sucking my dick. However this time she tells me "you know my conscious won't allow me to do anymore than this, but if I drink it could help" so I of course take the hint and we drank the next time and I fucked her. We would do this every other month or so and while watching Silver Lining Playbook (chose this cause I knew it was going to be empty in the theater) she sucked my dick right then and there. But once again we would quit talking. And just like before she came back 3 months later and messaged me on Facebook asking me how I'm doing and shit. I took it at as her reaching out and wanting to hangout with me so I offered.

Of course we start again where we left off. However this time she caught me during the beginning stages of me reading the red pill. My confidence due to this place, lifting, playing hockey, spinning more plates and having more of a fun life led her to wanting me more. I was able to start fucking her without having to drink with her. Oh did I mention she's still taken by the same guy? Cause she is.

It was the beginning of May when her and I really began to fuck consistently and hangout almost once every week. Because of here I only complimented her when she brought me stuff and I would pass her shit tests and she would love it and eat it up. She asked me to get her sunglasses she left inside and I told her that she's dumb for leaving them in there and she has to get them herself. She began to be attached, I could just tell. She would buy me things, bring me food, and she would try and push me in the right direction towards bettering myself even though I didn't really need the help. But it showed she cared. This girl had a good family, or so it seemed. Her parents were together. Her dad was there for her. She was heading in the right direction. Minus her cheating on her boyfriend with me, she was what I thought was a unicorn. I started getting oneitis for a girl because of the sex and because my other plates started spinning slowly and I didn't fuck them in awhile.

One day I decide to possibly add her on Facebook again. Not sure why, but I did, and low and behold I find out she's actually engaged to her boyfriend as of April 2013. I'm bitter because of the oneitis at the time and I'm shocked. It's one thing to have a boyfriend and cheat on him let alone a fiance. The next day she comes over were about to go to the movies when she says 'hey I wanted to talk to you about something' but then quickly realizes how hard it will be for her to bring it up. I tell her we aren't leaving until she spits it out. So she does. She tells me what I already know. She says "I'm engaged so we have to end this. I'm getting married in a week". She comes off as genuinely sad about it. We end up not even leaving and actually talking about everything we've been through. Normally I would have expressed no emotion and just said fuck it and played it off as whatever but I figured the time was over and I should move on from her but before I do I guess it wouldn't hurt to be a little honest. She asks me if I'll miss her and I said yeah, she tells me shell miss me a lot and likes me a lot because of my attitude and my aura and my tattoos/image. She likes the sex a lot. She likes how I'm the only person that can actually have a genuine conversation with her and ask questions that show I am interested in her life. I'm the only person that doesn't stress her out either. Eventually she has to leave and I think that's the last time I'll see her.

It's not.

The next day at 1 am she just gets home from her bachelorette party which was at a club with her two closest girlfriend's and she sent me a pic of her in a club dress and tells me she just bought new panties and wants me to see them, so I tell her well I have something to show you. I almost got her to leave her friends to come over and fuck. She tells me shell skip out on church and fathers day and come over and fuck. Unfortunately that didn't happen and they kept bothering her to go to church so she did. Later that night I get out of work and she's here waiting for me at my house and instantly we fucked. I fucked her like it was the last time.

When were done she tells me that she came back apparently because I shared my feelings and told her I would miss her. Which is what doesn't make sense to me I thought that would have just pushed her away. However I was told by other members here that it was because of my charisma and how I delivered my thoughts that led to her wanting me more among other things. So she's about to leave and I say "hey you know I also have tomorrow off". She comes over and we do it again. Every other day we fucked up until 3 days before the wedding. On Wednesday she tells me that the reason she's doing what she does with me is because he apparently cheated on her and hid stuff from her awhile ago and they've broken up before/had a break and so she uses it as justification to do it back to him. (I personally think he's a beta ass fucker and didn't do shit and it's just her hamstering). We talk more and she says shes scared to death to marry the guy cause she doesn't think he loves her like she loves him. She says he doesn't show care or emotional support apparently. Says that she thinks it'll get better. Little does she know marriage will only make everything worse. After she leaves my house she texts me a couple hours later and tells me she already misses me and she's getting attached to me and it's freaking her out. Friday night, the night before the wedding she texts me and asks me how my day is going. Which is bizarre to me because I would think you should be busy thinking about your wedding and not me.

So the wedding happens and I don't hear from her for a bit. I wait a week and text her saying "come over I want to pin you up against a shower wall" she replies "oh? in a good way?" I tell her that she needs me to show her. She says I'm not allowed. I say some sexual things and she says "I'm married I can't!" "ugh I want too..." but then asks where me being persistent came from and tries getting me to admit I miss her. I tell her to come over and find out if i miss her or not. She says ok but don't expect anything from me. Thanks to the red pill I've realized the majority of times it's hamstering and they still really want to.

She comes over but I ended up being in a terrible mood because a friend of mine passed away 2 years ago and I saw a facebook post about him so it set me in a bad mood. So when she came over I didn't initiate and only talked. I would however catch her try and cuddle on me and hold my hand, but then pull away. I would try and pull her in but she would pull away after a minute or so. One thing she mentioned before she left that made me chuckle was that she asked what I would do if I got a girlfriend. I tell her I don't plan on getting a girlfriend, but to just stay single and have fun. I tell her I'll be fine I have other options, I don't need a girlfriend. She has nothing to say. I ask her "sounds like youll be jealous huh?" she says she would be and says that if I get a girlfriend or date anyone she would have a hard time hanging out with me (yeah right haha). I eventually make her leave because I made plans to hangout with friends.

The next day (july 4) she sends me a snapchat of her in a shirt with her cleavage semi showing and the caption says something along the lines of (USA + Me + boobs) So she's pointing out her boobs, which to me is an invitation to continue where we left off. However a week later I text her and tell her to come over and she says "I can't I'm working until next Friday" I tell her that shell have to make it up to me later on and she once again says she cant she's married, I point out that she sent me that snapchat of her cleavage and she hamsters and lies and says "no i don't, I snapchatted that pic to everyone cause it said USA on it" Haven't talked to her since. But I would not be surprised if I go silent for now she comes back to me. If she does that's cool, if she doesn't that's fine there's other girls.

So this is where we currently are in my FR and relationship with this girl. My main focus is to share the fact that there are no unicorns and all women are the same. Also that being on the other side of the fence and getting a girl to do shit with me the past two years has opened up my eyes and made me realize how picky I really need to be to be in a LTR. The same should go for anyone else.

TLDR; Even girls whose families are secure, girls who are caring and loving and nice and are there for you. Girls who are on the right path, haven't done drugs, don't party or have only slept around a little bit, are still not unicorns. There are no unicorns. All it takes is a certain guy to bring the whore out of a girl.