So don't wanna go to deep into it. I was naturally red pill to pull this girl, but I automatically go beta bucks in a relationship. I slowly grow more and more beta until about righ before christmas which was ten months of dating. I can tell she is somewhat interested in this guy because he has some social status which I forgeited in efforts of showing her how much she completed me. I see all the signs, I know what she is thinking. I pretty much know exactly what she is doing. We break up. I take her back. I get even more beta. She decides to stay with me and cuts off communication with this other guy at my request. But I find proof of leaving notes of longing for him online. I blow up. Give her an ultimatum. She doesnt choose. I dont back my shit up. She leaves me.

Get freakishly obsessive and she decides it isnt worth staying with me and returns to her branch.

I am still completely hung up on my oneitis for at least a week. Cue red pill. Still think about my oneitis and cant help but initiate contact. Eventually the main bulk of my emotions subside, but she is never off my mind. I manage to drop 20 pounds. And I have a cute plate who I am already fucking. I facebookstalked her for a while and stuff. Cut back on initiating. And finally ignore her. I made a huge effort to repair all the bridges I cut and make twice as many social connects as I had before and be twice as successful.

She finally spoke to me today for more than a few words. My game was completely whack but she wouldnt stop talking to me. I literally told her "Holy shit, You will not shut up." And she rationalized it and kept talking anyway. Well, I realized I am not over my oneitis emotionally even though I can operate logically.

What should I do? I assume the advice is going to be to plate her, but I really want to re vet her. Re show her the alpha man she fell in love with but maintain frame back with my reinforced red pill knowledge. Which is horribly beta. I get it, but there is something about her. They are dating officially but I know they have fucked yet. She isnt a slut, she shares a lot of my interests and has her own interests which make her so impressive to me. She isnt very well educated but she is socially, emotionally and actually smart. She is fun to be around. I know she isnt a slut. She doesnt want to marry. I just know I fucked up by being beta.