I'm a 21 year old female who's been promiscuous for 4 years. I've been in pornographic films, worked as an escort, and am currently "just" a stripper. I estimate my number of partners at 300.

In the last year I learned about the red pill and it made perfect sense to me. But I feel hopeless. No red pill guy would ever want to actually marry me and have a traditional family. That's all I want, but I am sure no good qualities can make up for my past.

I do cook, enjoy cleaning/organizing, and am very supportive and easy going. I work out; I'm 5"10 and 150 pounds. Blonde, blue eyes.

I would do anything to be able to go back and run from the cock carousel but its too late. Does anyone have advice? I feel suicidal because of this daily.

Tldr: I'm a whore who's inwardly red pill. My only desire is to be a wife and mom. Is there anything I can do besides give up?