I'm a soft spoken introverted girl, always have been. I'm the type to thoughtfully listen to others instead of taking control of the conversation. I'm pretty patient and mild mannered, and my boyfriend likes that, but almost too timid and unassertive.

My boyfriend by and large dominates our conversations. He initiates conversation 90% of the time. He's a highly intelligent man. He's the eccentric math prodigy, a bit of sigma male. He's a programmer, a damn good one. He'll build an AI for chess in his free time. Whenever he shows me and explains his code, which is quite often, I can merely smile, nod and tell him I'm proud of him. I feel like I can't keep up. I took a basic web design class in college but that's the extent of my programming knowledge.

Our nights consist of doing something silently side by side. I'll be reading and he'll be coding. It's cozy enough and he's affectionate with me but I'm afraid of not being stimulating enough for him. I'm college educated, but in a kind of useless liberal arts field. He's above and beyond me in understanding politjcs, science, and technology. I'm interested in skincare, fashion, and nutrition. We don't overlap too much.

He calls me a sweet girl but I sense disappointment when he tries to pick my brain. I'm agreeable and defer to him. I'm not a drama starter, but I'm predictable. I fear I'm too predictable and quiet. There are girls who are energetic and outgoing, perhaps more able to keep up with him mentally. I worry that in comparison I'm boring. I want to be able to speak up more when he talks to me and relate to his train of thought.