My rational mind knows that it shouldn’t be something I should worry about, but when I see this happen to my crush (of 1 week, that I’ll hit up soon), it intimidates me fucking hard. Happened today, where she was laughing with another guy.

It literally makes me feel like if I don’t bench my 1RM at that moment, I’d feel powerless and worthless. My life achievements mean nothing. It’s a temptation inside my body that I need to release somehow. It’s a feeling of increased energy and angerness.

I don’t know what the hell is going on, but fuck this feeling. Has anyone else experienced it? What’s going on? How to overcome it? Is it my high self-esteem being shattered?