I'm gonna be honest with you guys: internalizing TRP is a struggle and a half. I've been reading TRP ever since the beginning of this year, but I've actually made goals and started applying the principles here for the past month or so.

With that being said, my biggest issue now is the clash between my old, BP self and the new self I am trying to create. The way I feel is very similar to growing out a beard for the first time. At first, it looks patchy/ugly, and you have to constantly fight the urge to go back to being clean shaven. A part of me wants to unplug from the matrix and actually live life, but another part of me wants to keep plugged in where it's safe and familiar.

The issue lies in active situations where I'm expected to give a response/action. I either act RP, but then second guess myself and revert to BP, or I'm so caught up with what to say/do that I freeze up. Both negatively impact my frame imo.

Any advice on how to deal with this issue?

Thanks.