I'm around here a lot but I never post but now it's purge week.

I'd say I've spent the last five years trying to encapsulate a certain 'vibe' that 'alphas' give off. I've tried everything from Connor McGregor DGAF type alpha (cringe) to actually trying to be Dark Triad (cringe) to strong and silent type, which really meant cutting myself off from everybody.

I'd say this has been around 65 percent of my waking thoughts for the last five years. I'm serious and think I need help lmao.

I'm serious but I realize this sounds ridiculous.