I know it's evil, but I don't know how to feel about children. I want to pass on my genes. It's instinctual. But whenever I think about it for too long, I realize I have no idea what family relationships really are.

I don't want to get too personal here, but my family is extremely unhealthy. I'm 18, and I live with my dad, my step mom, and my adopted brother. I wouldn't consider my step mother an actual mother figure, and my dad is... a metaphorical "cuck". I'm about 10 years older than my brother. We didn't really experience much parenting at all. Our parents just stuck us in front of TVs all day. I got lucky and was somewhat naturally well behaved, but my little brother is so bad that I refuse to acknowledge him most of the time.

My family is completely backwards. It's hard to imagine actually loving a family member. Can anyone else relate? How did life turn out for you? Were you scared you'd resent your children?