Abstract: I'm not sure if this is the place to put this, but if anyone can help me, you guys can. Like the title says, I'm on a downward spiral. Three months ago things were going great, I was working an internship during my summer break, I had multiple plates spinning, and hooked up several times, but now everything's stagnating.

Body: I'm in my junior year of undergrad, and I'm totally disillusioned by the way my course is going. I'm studying a creative field, and let's just say I don't believe in my school's philosophy. They insist on teaching us meaningless garbage that's so vague and general, while I have a goal and a specialization I want to learn about. The internship I worked was at a small company and it taught me a lot about the stuff I needed. I slept with a co-worker, had an active social life with my work friends, and rented an apartment in a pretty great neighborhood, so I was around bars and nightclubs. I loved working.

Now that I'm back in school I'm back to studying the same banal horseshit spouted by pretentious cunts who call themselves professors. I know I should just grind through it and get my ass out of here as soon as possible. I've been hired for another internship next summer at a top tech firm, it's a huge deal, but I do need to grind the rest of the year out.

It's just so hard to keep motivated. My social life has plummeted. Now that I'm not working anymore I'm broke, and can't afford(the time or the money) to go to clubs much. I haven't had sex since the summer and I've been jerking it like a man possessed, sometimes 4-5 times a day. It always feels like shit afterwards.

I've lost my gym schedule and finding it really hard to get back. I can't get back on my diet without a fridge, so I'm living on shitty hostel food. Although I haven't bounced back to my pre-TRP weight (200lbs), I can feel that I'm slowly putting on weight.

In conclusion, I need to do the following:

  1. Get some form of diet back.
  2. get a gym routine.
  3. grind out the next 1.5 years of college, and then get a job.
  4. work my ass off at the next internship so they hire me when I graduate.

I need some way to stay motivated towards these goals. Please help me out.