I’ve been beaten, bullied and even stabbed when I was younger, mostly due to being brown in this racist ass country (UK).

I’m now jacked, 6’1, combat sports for years, I would bet on myself and any smart man would do the same.

My problem is now that I’m constantly always imagining fights in my head, I’ll make eye contact with some guy and vividly imagine me beating the fuck out of him. It’s fucking up my mental space.

I’ve trained so much the past few years, I’m a very confident guy but it’s annoying that I’m always in an aggressive/hostile mood rather than a friendly, happy mood which I would like to be.

Anyone similar to this? I’m trying hard to change these thoughts but progress is slow