Had sex with a Tinder slut last night. It was a first date. My 10th body count as of now, but nothing to be proud off. Id rate her a 4 or 5. I have a weakness with big goth girls so sue me. Pretty good as I broke a 2 week dry spell.

We went back to my place for drinks, made my move. An easy lay with no LMR or anything. Got her to bed, ate her out good. Wrapped it up, fucked her missionary, stopped and ate her out more, and flipped her over (somehow) and fucked her doggy. While we fucked she repeated “fuuuuuck you fuck so good”.

Went to throw the condom alway. We were both laying down and then she says “wow so uh.... fuck you were more dominating than I thought you were”.

Couple months ago same thing, tinder girl came over to my place for the first on a first date, I made a move right away, when we were done having sex, she says “wow ok so I wasn’t expecting this from you. Didn’t think you would make a move when I came over, I was expecting you to be innocent and soft”.

All of these things are bad right? They’re basically just saying “I’m pretty sure you were beta as fuck and didn’t have the balls to make a move”.

Which truth be told I still am beta. Very much. Still socially awkward, for every girl a bang on a date the previous 2 dates went to shit or got ghosted, haven’t grown a spine, hard time being dominant socially, etc. I really don’t have fuck buddies for more than a month at the most.

All that is reflecting on my dates isn’t it?