Having become an adult and being able to have the life experience to think about things more logically, I can’t help but feel disillusionment with relationships in general. Sexual and romantic ones to be exact.

I don’t wanna go into detail about my sex life, but my first few relationships didn’t go too well. Nobody was perfect (including me) but it certainly sucked.

Having done the research and knowing from experience, it’s just an all risk no reward thing.

Not to go full black pill here. But I’d rather play video games or draw than:

  • Have my stuff taken away via divorce or breakup.
  • Be falsely accused of rape/sexual harassment.
  • Have to deal with relationship drama AGAIN.
  • Not be able to do what I want (within reason).

I know I can’t have my cake and eat it too. But it feels like I’ll never find true love and instead just lust after women over and over. Since all I’ve ever felt is lust. And I hate it.

Either that, or be single for life. Which is where I see myself within the next 10 or 20 years.