I will be 24 in a few months, I'm a 5'4'' balding guy who is still a virgin. I left TRP like 6 months ago and can see the world in a more positive way since then. I've lost ~45-50pounds in the last year and am lifting 3 times a week. I check my diet and do all the good old self-improvement things. All in all, life is going good. I am still in college and talk to the few girls that are in my classes. Small talks nothing more. Sometimes I chat with random women waiting at my bus stop, etc. I even caught some smiling at me!

The thing is this morning while taking the bus, 2 girls I would say between 18-22 were talking behind me. One was talking about this guy that was a bad boy but could french-kiss very well. She clearly said that he was NOT a good long term partner and she was with him only for sex. She even mentioned sneaking him in her parent's house to have some loud sex at night (why brag about being sneaky then?) and more details etc etc. It was like 7am so you know, you try to shut your eyes and have a few more minutes of sleep before tackling the day. At the end of the ride I turned around thinking she would be this slutty over the top makeup girl with a big cleavage and tight pants BUT NO you couldn't have more average of a women than her.

It got me thinking all day long about how those plain Janes who I thought would be at least more respectable and would be less inclined to engage in casual sex was just an illusion. You know? The women you would actually bring back to your family?

So I ask you this, as a complete inexperienced moron of a man trying to stay sane, how can I stop thinking everything with a vagina is a cock carousel hungry whore? Because of this small eavesdrop I can see myself going back to this man who sees everything from a black and white point of view. I feel like I need a good week or two of total exclusion from humans. I feel disgusted by the opposite sex. Ok disgusted maybe not, my mother is a saint haha.

I don't want to think like an incel. I'm lost.