Hey, I'm writing this out of anger and despair. I'm a weak man who is still virgin and didn't have a gf.

First pua, then redpill and after that mgtow. Until I felt bad enough with myself and got depressed from my loneliness. I was trying to find a solution (and still trying) to it.

Now all my good beliefs are shattered. I am not good enough, I'm replaceable, I'm short 5'4. Why would she crave me when she got 100 boys waiting for her pussy. In addition I find it harder to concentrate on my work (programming) and in the sc degree.

I feel so sad and imagine when I will have ltr she probably would use me and go with someone better.

Please help me to erase those negatives. Redpill generalize half of the population, but I see it is true when going out with friends, although I want to believe in the human in front of me.

I'm devastated, never could find a real love because now afraid to trust her.