First off this may not be conventional, however I feel that I can get some help here.

I found TRP a couple of years ago through PUA. PUA did teach me some things I still use today - no worries, I'm not using the retarded parts of it just the parts which make you question things. So TRP seemed perfect since it was all about questioning the mainstream and what not, so I thought it would be a good place to learn a few things and pick up a literature to see things from another perspective.

While I did pick up a few good things (like being more assertive and bold to name a few), I fear that I did pick up a few bad things such as the misogyny, the AF/BB concept, AWALT etc. Of course, being a guy, it was nice to find a place which was a "male space", not that I have an issue with women but akin to how women need a female only space, it is natural to assume the same applies to us lads too.

However the problem is now IRL where I do say interact with both genders. With women, I can't help but think of the whole alpha-beta thing when interacting with them (doesn't help that it gets results too). With guys... when I see a guy act "beta", it lowers my opinion of him, even if he's a perfectly good fellow. Whereas I seem to respect someone who exhibits "alpha" traits, even if he's a complete scumbag I'd probably punch in the fact if they were near me. I'd like to think this is more of respecting people who go get things done; who seek results. But I cannot ignore the RP overtones which seems to spark other conclusions like "this guy will be a cuck, she'll be an alpha widow etc". I know a lot of this doesn't occur, particularly a guy being an alpha forever... but I'd like to unlearn this if possible.

No doubt that it did reinforce the desire to pursue self-improvement and some thinking points e.g. tread women with high N counts and single parents (as dating prospects) with caution -- something confluent with society's view... the cost seems a bit hefty like there's this natural disrespect that comes in when I see such people e.g. I'd naturally think the high N count woman is a slut or the single mother couldn't lock down an alpha.

The discontent came when I found that as I grew up more, I don't agree with it totally like I did before. The politics is total garbage, you get down voted and pretty much start fights if you reference common sense topics and refute stupid points like "Brexit wasn't a slave revolt" and "Trump is not an alpha" etc and the general bitterness is just off putting now. I'd like to believe I was not mentally feeble which is why it didn't mess me up badly to the point where I fucked up key life choices.

Though for the sake of my sanity, I need help unlearning it. I want to be more open minded again and think of RP as a school of thought, not some godsend creed which enlightens me. Granted the world is brutal and it is stupid to be naïve, however I do not think it excuses TRP delusions (you know them) to start seeping in masquerading as truth; "RP truth".

I guess I'll always be somewhat RP as I've always been misanthropic and sceptical by nature. However I think the RP has only exacerbated them to gross proportions and I just need help unlearning them.

I'm looking at the starter kit, but is there any more that I can do?