I do not trust women anymore. I want to trust my girlfriend but I simply can't, even though she has not given me reason to distrust her. All I can think is everything RP has taught me. I get disgusted just looking at her because I can only imagine all the scenarios RP says to look out for. All I can think is that she's waiting and looking for the next guy to come along and it makes me sick.

I feel like a shell. The thing is, everything RP says makes sense to me. Still does. But if it's going to leave me as empty as I feel with any woman, I don't want it anymore. Is there anyway to unlearn everything? Anything that could make me change my mind? I simply don't want this anymore but it makes so much sense that I can't trick myself out of the thinking they've taught me.