Stats: 8/10 Body Fat is 15%, 6'2, weight 170 and lifts about every other say, max is 155, hope to increase by 175 in a month. Bought dumbbells just in case, I'm not able to go to the gym, so I'm doing better

Reading: 9/10 Improving on reading Bible everyday and I have NMMNG, but I have not been consistently reading NMMNG. Now I'm currently reading the 100-200 series on the sidebar, I need to swallow the red pill--and fast.

Finances: No job, currently senior at college but graduating with a bachelor and minor; I do have promising prospects in my field, most likely will be earning 60,000 1st year with what I have set up

Spiritual: 8.5/10. I read bible daily but not enough quiet time, want to be more spiritual and grow closer to God. Its rare for me to go a day without prayer. I never go a day without thinking of God. Getting better with meditation and reflecting on scripture.

First I want to thank everyone who replied to my previous post, I want to reinstate---my girlfriend is not your typical sleazy American girl, she has a good heart, she is just immature and naive. She's 18 and I see that her lack of experience (being homeschooled) and poor parenting from her parents side (who are Christian) didn't teach her anything about relationships or interacting with the opposite sex.

What broke the camels back was when she gave out her number to a random older man (early 50s?) she was apparently clueless that the man was hitting on her. Later on, the man texted her nice to meet you, lets go out for coffee sometime and and she replied saying sorry she has a boyfriend, maybe we can all go together. When she began telling me how this happened, she first apologized and told me she needs help with saying No to people (in this case, I guess saying no when someone is hitting on you?, she doesn't have this problem with people her age, as I've seen her reject guys advances but apparently with older man she says it's a respect issues, she's not used to seeing older guys as her peers)

Eh, bad explanation and I don't buy it completely, I don't see where respect is an issue when it comes to giving an older man your number....this is really strange folks. She's going abroad sometime later this year and I'm thinking if she gave her number out this easily, what could happen when I'm there.

Now, she felt bad and guilty and asked if I could help her in this regard, but I don't know....I feel like I'm training a child in this relationship. She seemed so mature at first, but I see she doesn't know good boundaries when it comes to guys sometimes, the last issue we had was with the dude at a christian retreat.

Another thing, I feel guilty about us being sexual in the relationship. I don't know if I should consider myself a virgin because the act couldn't be completed WARNING: FOLLOWING TEXT MAY BE GRAPHIC [penetration couldn't be completed, but we grinned while we were nude](/spoiler) if we do break up, I would feel intense regret knowing I have to explain this to my future wife, but it is better than being in a bad marriage where cheating could occur. What's worse is that I feel like a hypocrite because I still desire a virgin....is that wrong? if so, I would like to be corrected.

So, unless God magically intervenes like He did with Joseph when he was planning to end things with Mary ( I know it's different, they were engaged) and God shows me that I was wrong about everything then I would reconsider the relationship but as things are, there are many red flags saying she is immature and that I should end it soon.

Any thoughts?