Physical 20years old, 204 lbs, 21.7% body fat, Can’t do many of the main lifts due to a wrist problem. Looking to take care of a ganglion cyst in my left wrist this coming January. May 14th and started at 228.9 lbs. Have gone 4-5 days a week consistently up until Thanksgiving where I fell off the wagon and haven't been disciplined since. I've gone to the gym since then but haven't been as consistent or motivated to push myself. Also my eating has been off too. I think this is caused by the issues I am asking about below.

Reading Books TRM I, TRM II, Modles by Marc Manson, Sidebar: for singles section, 100s and 200s Currently: reading through Luke and Antifragile

Spiritual Gave my life to Christ 1.5 years ago Bible time/ quiet time: have always struggled to be consistent in this area. I’d say I average around 2-3 times a week Prayer: I have made it a thing to pray in the shower. I’ll usually have a long 10-15 minute prayer session about 3-4 times a week where I just bring my everything to the Lord and struggle forward through stuff Don’t really share my faith much cause I feel like I’m a spiritual novice. I'm currently talking to a friend in Young Life about getting involved

Finances Currently a sophomore in college majoring in Management of Information Systems and Finance with a 3.42 GPA Fortunate to have my father paying for all of my expenses for my 4 years

I have in the past dealt with depression for a few years in the past. I'm at a point now where I feel better and not depressed, but something will trigger a thought I'll feel like I once did. And unfortunately I feel at home in that state and will wallow in it because there I'm safe, there I'm the victim and nothing is my fault.

Any practical advice on overcoming what you once were?