This is gonna be a bit controversial, I wanna start a discussion about the nature of male sexual dominance and get some more insight. Starting discussion here but if you guys think that it's worthy of TRP sub let me know.

I had kind of an awakening experience the other day with a girl I've been "seeing" and have had history with for awhile, I'll call her J. Short back story is that we've always been close and kinda had a FWB thing going for a while but have gotten closer this past month. I was never really dominant in the bedroom, I could be on top but never really unleashed the primal male before out of fear. Fear of how they'd react, fear of the repercussions, of hurting them and being too rough, etc.

Well last night, J and I had a bit to drink and we exchanged Xmas gifts. Started making out a bit and things escalated very intensely. She climbed on top of me but for whatever reason I said "nah not this time" and threw her to the side. We were talking dirty and I told her she's my little whore for the night and she says, "I've been bad and I want you punish me" along those lines. So I just said fuck it. For the first time in my life, something was unleashed in me, the primal male or whatever. It was like an intense power struggle between us in which I asserted my dominance over her. And when I say I was rough, I mean really rough. Like choking her, slapping her, telling her she's my little whore and I'm doing this because I love her, things like that. She cried out that this was the best sex she ever had and she just became my slut for the night, she was completely insatiable. Even at one point said "has this been in here the whole time?" I've never been really good at "pleasing" the woman fully during sex but she came multiple times and her legs actually fucking shaking.

Look, it might be a little cringe to write all this out and it might seem like I'm bragging (well maybe a little, I mean c'mon, I've never felt this much like a Chad post-sex so cut me some slack). My point of writing this is that ever since this night, she's been absolutely smitten with me. Like obsessed. Sent me a bunch of texts how she's so happy I'm in her life, how she loves me and how her pussy is only for me, and it felt like she just put up with sex before and kinda enjoyed it but she literally BEGGED me to come over tonight for a repeat, says I won her heart after that. And I am just absolutely thunderstruck at not only the fact that that primal male was in me all along, but also that she ENJOYED it so deeply, that it's what she's been craving. Why the fuck do they like this? Because looking back, I was rough guys, I'm usually in that beta mindset so it was hard for me to be so aggressive with her. Didn't wanna hurt m'lady! But I basically "let go" and let that part of me take hold. And it was the first time in my life that I truly felt that I was in harmony with that which makes a man "a man."

**Disclaimer: I am not recommending this to anyone. In fact, for optics, I will say do NOT listen to a word I've said, I just wanna know how and why this happened and that's all.**

I need some answers. First off, why was this randomly unleashed like this? Secondly, why did she like it so goddamn much? Why is she obsessed with me like this now? And where do I go from here now that this girl is basically in the palm of my hands, I mean we had only 45 mins to see each other a few hours ago and I unleashed it again, this bitch literally fell asleep with me on FaceTime talking about happy she is when she's with me and never wants to lose me, wants something more serious, etc. I've never had a woman this BLATANTLY into me. She was definitely into me before and always wanted to see me, but it's like next level now.

It's fucked up. And that's why I'm on a throwaway because this is seriously profound and controversial stuff right here. There are two quotes I'd like to share but I won't because of this platform. One is a tweet by Mike Cernovich, other is a quote from Evola's "Eros and the Mysteries of Love." I'll leave it at that.

**tl;dr: I felt male dominance in the bedroom for the first time in my life and I'm thunderstruck at the results.**