You can see through my post history and karma that I'm not a beginner. Been on this sub for the last 6-9 months or so, been RP for the better part of 6-7 years. Learned a lot from this sub, while also helping when I could. That said, I took the plunge recently for the first time in a very, very long time and got in an LTR recently. She's much younger than me, and you know how it goes: you run game, she falls for you hard, you get comfortable and start to fuck up.

It's been so long since I've been in a relationship that I almost forget how much damn work it is compared to plates and FB. Not only do you have to do the couples bullshit that gets annoying as fuck, but you have to constantly monitor yourself so you don't turn into that beta faggot that you were whilst plugged in.

I'm afraid I'm starting to fuck up and let myself go with this one. She's 20, a solid 8, and we have ass loads in common. We've known each other for years because her parents are friends of the family, which is kind of the whole reason I said fuck it and finally went for a relationship. I wanted it to be easy. Well, it's been too easy and within the last 2 weeks the script has flipped and now I see the writing on the wall. I'm texting too much. Showing too much affection. Checking my phone every 5 fucking minutes waiting on her to text. Getting disappointed when we don't hang out, etc. and she's getting ever so slightly more distant. Not too much, not much that any normal guy would even notice, but I've ingested the medicine. I'm unplugged. I can see this shit 8 miles away at Eminems house. How the fuck did I get here? We've been seeing each other for 3 months and I'm already turning into a fucking White Knight? Christmas time I was fucking 3 different girls and focused on self improvement and keeping centered with a level head. I get a stupid idea and now look at me.

The whole point is fellas: be warned, and be wary, not only of the hamster and the true nature of females, but of yourself. Almost all of us are here because we were either betas at one point, or we are one now and want to change that.

Deep down, We all would love to be nice, loving, honest, affectionate and all that other bullshit, and have a woman love and respect us for it, but that shit ain't reality. That beta inside will fight you to the death when you start to actually care for someone. He will try his best to kill the alpha inside, and he will do it wil lies. He will sit on your shoulder and tell you to be sweet, to be caring, to text her because what girl wouldn't want her man to care about her enough to text her all day? Fuck him! He is the same pussy that got your heart broke a million times. He's the same guy who left you sexless way more than you ever wanted to. He's the same one that left you bitter, angry, confused, and hopeless. Even though he makes perfect logical sense in your mind you must remember, you're not dealing with a logical gender, you're dealing with an emotional one, and that blue pill faggot on your shoulder whispering in your ear is only telling you things you wish to be true, rather than things that actually are.

There are lots of things to be aware of as a RP man, but the thing you need to be most wary of is yourself.

It's time for me to back off, get back to self improving, instill a little dread, and sit and ponder all of the bad things being a blue pill faggot ever brought me. Any other suggestions are welcomed.

I have kill that blue pill devil on my shoulder over and over again, because he is who I was for so long.That doesn't just magically disappear.