I’m not familiar with most of the terms but Father was a strong captain and my Mom was a Baptist. He’d been spinning plates but not with her knowledge. I vowed never to become the Harpee wife.

Things were good after kids I dropped the ball. In the looks department. Not sure what came first.

Discovered affairs. Blood boiled not at the cheating but at the fact a woman got to have this image of being super confident when I know it’s because she had the good dick of my husband and got to keep her marriage as well as have that extra spring in her step, she had a lot of validation at home and from my captain. I took responsibility of what influenced him to step out the things that I had control over.

He is a great captain and is not redpill (well unless this is fight club) he has his moments and this isn’t a bash post.

I just feel like I’m a realist. It’s not really a Hail Mary to save the marriage but a realization that if I’m bi and he is high libido and so am I we could have this fun whilst staying together. As long as he stays in Captain mode, and not go Rambo or dark triad.

I lost weight and he gave me the go ahead for skin tightening. Insurance will cover pelvic floor reconstruction, it’ll be tighter on the inside not just aesthetically onthe outside. Two large sons and two birth injuries, (I know boring but even though he is large)

when we have had threesomes the women’s vaginas are noticeably tighter than mine. Even on my fingers. Our sons are 5 and 7 and it’s kind of difficult but I’ve managed to up my value, I don’t nag or ask for any help ever. I would use to ask for him to get me a water or stuff like that but not even that anymore. It’s my honor to please him of course not worth mentioning something I love to do.

To my point: it is a lot of time trying to find a unicorn. It’s mostly married chicks with their shit together with a man that provides financially and they peruse the adult single sites or Pinterest stay at home moms wanting to fuck just him not true bi girls. Some not even comfortable with me being there or trying to recruit me for their husband.

I am naturally subby and would love a sub sister in the bedroom, I’ve noticed subs seem way more our style. But it still feels predatory and like grooming, and technically it feels like a tool.

Sugar babies quote like 700.00 for dinner and a date then 200 every time after. Escorts are hit or miss and ultra paranoid of me (thinking I am a cop) We had a Korean massage parlor girl before Valentine’s Day, and my husband is pretty hung. She was beyond rude...

The next day we chatted almost entire day and then the woman we found said no-that she wanted a equal swap, which we are upfront we don’t pretend like I am single and gay because that’s bait and switch. It’s just women we looked for not men or couples.

The issue is this takes a lot of time, domestic duties, kids are on virtual due to Covid. He comes home and dinner is made, classwork and home work is done, but we seek a hedonistic slice and it just seems unobtainable. My sons are getting quality time with both of us.

Maybe threesomes spoiled us surely there are other wholesome activities. I think the desire would still be there for it.

I know the notion that I wouldn’t have to seek one if I was one, but I’m aging and I’m bi, I don’t need it or desire it-however the odds are in our favor, it’s really fun to me when the stars align for it to happen.

I thought he had a plate for sure, she is sweet and Due to her age care free, but it’s been denied so much either he is inlove or going to leave for her which used to haunt me but, I’ve really enjoyed getting to know my husband again. I was trying to approach the plate and drop hints but did it a year ago. I am more emotionally mature now and vowed to just enjoy whatever time is left because thinking I have all the time in the world can make me feel complacent during tough times.

The issue with this “gf”that doesn’t exist is he may have had to portray me as a frigid bitch in order to keep her on the line (that was his strategy with a LD work affair) so that might be why the only woman (young gf)i fancied and we have things in common with is not available.

closed at night.