As I'm sure is the case with many people here my parents preached that anger was a bad thing. My parents have been divorced since I was 1 year old. When living with mom I got sent to my room or yelled at when I got angry as a kid. When living with my dad he would be slightly more understanding, but he was super stressed out from work and very blue pill. Because of this sometimes when I got angry at my sister he would explode like a bomb and chase me into a corner and scream directly in my face at the top of his lungs, with a feral look almost as if he was about to attack me.

This made me absolutely terrified to get angry around my dad, and made me bite my tounge when angry around my mom.

I know anger can be a powerful tool for men when used correctly, and in general a masculine trait.

However now at 26 I'm still catching myself biting my tounge and building resentment. I get some anger out at the gym though and I promised myself never to explode like my dad did, a promise which I've held.

In general I don't like confrontation and I usually back down when other men get confrontational, which makes me feel like a bitch, I know my experiences as a child has traumatized me. My very first memory I can remember in my life is my dad screaming in my face and me crying, I was probably 3 at the time.