Check my post history for the background story.

This deployment isn't getting any better. Some days are better than others, and it all comes in waves...but this sucks. We've broke up and she's moved out of my apartment. I'm hitting the gym regularly, but I just can't get my mind off of it yet. I have so much free time and I just dont know what to do with it anymore. I want to get out and socialize on base with people but my anxiety is through the roof so much so that I dont even want to leave my room. It's always in the back of my head that shes just back home banging other people probably every night and I'm stuck here acting like a pussy.

I'm talking to other girls back home but it's just empty nonsense. I'm on tinder but it goes no where and I feel like I've completely lost the ability to game. I know I'm stronger and better than this but I feel so lost.

Does anyone have any tips on getting over things like this easier? A plate or two while I'm here would be ideal but I just dont know how to get back into. I've read all the rationale male series and endless RP concepts but it makes things feel bleaker if I look at it now. I'm a fucking bitch and I don't know what to do anymore