A couple months ago, my then LTR of 6 months asked me if her ex could drive her home from school. Told her to get her shit straight and went away.

I get a call later on, her crying on the phone, saying she's sorry. After a while, her tone changed slightly, from being sorry to pushing for "the talk". Dumbass me agreed.

Not a month passed by, and sure enough, she broke up with me over nothings and got back with her ex. Shocker. Played it semi-well, although was a tad bit too outcome dependent and took my time to just say "Alright, wish you the best of luck".

Forgot about the advice that says "When she asks if she can see her ex, next her".

Played it cool, as to not come across as butthurt and insecure, thinking it might've just been a shittest.

Now, I also had/have slight oneitis for this bitch. Just pieced it all together after 2 months.

And it hits hard.

Here comes the part in which I come back here and ask for advice. How do I REALLY move on?

Been in the gym since, and that greatly helped get my mind off that and boosted my mood.

Started preparing seriously for med school right after the breakup. Started learning to code and game development at the same time.

Went out with a couple other bitches, they were full of red flags and turned me off.

That all helped; but my area got locked down again and now im stuck inside, hamstering and ruminating on it, feeling like a total bitch. What the fuck to do?

For a bit of context, im a 17 year old, objectively high SMV, except I dont really feel like that anymore. Her downgrading to her alcoholic and abusive ex definitely shattered my ego. Especially since she also was a HB7 at best, but just my type. And here I am bitching about her.