I let down my defences. She said I was her favourite person in the world, that she loves me more then her own family. She cooked for me, did everything to please me.

I thought I had it made. I thought after 2 years we had something that couldn’t just disappear in the blink of an eye.

I don’t understand. I never turned soft. I still worked out, I always kept my great sense of humour, I always had a leaders mentality. I knew my role was to lead and provide strength and thats what I did. If anything she let herself go more than I did.

And I thought that I was a great guy even though I wasn’t a nice guy. I’d do my fair share, I’d clean my plates when I ate at her apartment. I made sure she came too. I was a solid dude.

I thought it would be impossible for this relationship to go south.

I was funny, fit, great career ahead, overall high value dude. We went through shit together. I was never jealous, never snooping through her shit.

I was just a normal fucking human. A normal human who gave affection because he was receiving affection. I did what came natural. I invested emotion like she did and I always tried to invest slightly less but fair.

And then somehow it all just flips. She starts disrespecting me more and more, eventually even my parents. I tell her at a breaking point to get the fuck out of the house. And then its just done...

I’m the bad guy. I always abused her. Her sister agrees that I’m the douche.

Like just out of fucking nowhere. I barely blinked and I went from favourite person to not being liked.

And understanding TRP I caught on that it was an attraction issue and I said lets take time apart and improve ourselves but its done.

I don’t understand. I was a fucking GOOD guy. A strong guy. I am a strong guy.

But I’m so torn apart now like what the fuck. What do I do for my next relationship, how do I avoid this. Was it even avoidable. Was it just meant to be. It was her first ever relationship and we lasted 2 years can I blame her for acting like any young dumb ass woman does.

And even if it was meant to be, how can I take the sting away. Like I’m not fucking shattered over it but it hurts. I loved this girl and trusted in her. How can nature be so damn cruel.

I blocked all her shit now, granted I sent her like a fucking wall of text of how she is fucked up and a broken human capable of no feeling. Probably not the best way to prove her wrong but I couldn’t help that shit. And now I feel like ashamed for sending that shit because if she would shown an outsider I’d look like a psycho but the outsider cant see the betrayal I endured.

What now.

Is this just how relationships work. Like the men receive a slow income of benefits for a while until they pay a big psychological price at the end. Is this how it has to be. Can I avoid this, can I do something better next time. Was this just destined of no fault on my own.

I don’t want to grow bitter towards women and just turn into an incel and never date or have a relationship but I also don’t want to keep getting burnt by these succubi