I’ve been identifying as incel for almost a year now and I feel it has made my life feel a bit better in some ways such as finding community with other guys who have similar experiences as me, but I also feel like some of the fuel I’ve had makes me make excuses for toxic behavior towards women in my real life. Ive deleted old reddit accounts as a way to try and see if it would make a change in my real life, but I actually had an encounter where I got upset at a girl my cousin was into for playing with his feelings and I got so enraged during the argument that I called her a whore in front of her friends and threw a bottle at her (it hit the wall and shattered and no one was hurt thank god) but I’ve never had a moment like that in my life before and I feel embarrassed by it. How can I identify with this community but regain respect for normies? I feel like I’ve truly lost all respect for the outside world and I hate the person I’m becoming. Any advice?