As the title states I've created alot of mistrust in my relationship early on.

My girlfriend trusted me alot in the beginning, but my lack of trust in her is making her flat out not trust me at all. I stumbled on this sub in August and have been putting a ton of work in on myself. My problem stems from childhood abandonment which makes me not trust other people. Again I'm working on this.

The sex is still good. She does whatever I say. But let's be honest I'm in a relationship that is pretty much based off addiction to each other, because there's no trust.

I'm thinking she's getting buyers remorse, considering how all about me she's been from the start. The reason for my lack of trust is because she struggles with drinking, and isn't always honest about it. I feel like if she'll lie about drinking, what else will she lie about.

Despite this I haven't caught her in any bullshit detrimental to our relationship. I know it's not her. All my relationships go the same way. Again I'm trying to fix this problem that I have with myself.

Today she couldn't get ahold of me while she was at work for a few hours and she instantly blew up my phone with cheating accusations. Most of this is my fault, because I plant seeds in her head by constantly questioning her. She flat out told me she was so sure I wouldn't hurt her going into this, so she did everything I asked. Now she trusts me as much as I trust her.

Obviously she's angry. I let her vent. My question is what the fuck do I do? She still supportive but I know she's not happy. She said I broke her, which I've heard plenty of times from exes.

This isn't a question if what's my girlfriend thinking. This is a question of how I can start to trust her more, regardless of where the relationship is, even if it's just for practice. I've really been neglecting her from affection and intimacy because my lack of trust.