Hello TheRedPill,

I wish to offer some perspective, I hope it'll help those who are/will be in the same situation I am. I would first like to give some context to add value, but if you wish to get straight to the point then feel free to skip it for it is long.

==Context==

This new girl from India came to my school in mid-2016. I was a lurker at seduction and had insane confidence and some success with girls. I bumped into her on her first day, and with her friend whom I knew, I was introduced to her.

Over the course of a few weeks, I liked her in an "I would definitely pick her over all the other girls."

She's quiet and very introvert but was clever, she knows fluent English. She came from a 3rd world country, but she came from the good part of a 3rd world country. When I went out of my way to talk to her and she showed interest considering her quiet/introvert nature, I thought I hit jackpot. She definitely knew I had an interest in her, I flirted with her, did some things some would consider beta (pretending to propose to her as a joke, for example) and I complimented her. I thought "hey, she's a Muslim of South Asian origin, so am I. We're a match"

One day, I went up to her during Lunch to talk to her while she was with her friends and then she said this sentence

"I don't want to be in a relationship"

I was confused, I didn't say anything regarding relationships. But I played it off and left, leaving on a positive note.

Done and dusted, right?

Well no, because she said it with an "omg you're such a jerk" smile and after she said that, our interactions remained the same. We still smiled at each other whenever we walked past, we would tease and insult each other. I thought "oh, her friends pressured her to say this." because I didn't really give her friends attention when talking to her and I guess that annoyed them.

So after I nexted her, I don't know what happened, she still didn't go out of her way to talk to me, she barely does that with anyone in my school that are not her friend, she wouldn't pay attention to me when I used to sit next to her, the usual eye-contact and smile was all I got. Why I got oneitis for her is a mystery even to me.

It started in November when I had made the usual eye-contact with her in Maths class and she smiled back at me. Then, all of a sudden, I felt divided. One part was all of as sudden telling me to love her, the other part was telling me that she's not that worth it and that white European women are better obviously.

The loving part grew and grew. I was a confident person, why don't I just ask her out and get this over with?

Well, she got hit by a car, got injured and didn't return until early February.

So for 3 months, I would hope that she would return soon. And returned she did, but I didn't want to ask her out in February because she was still recovering and I didn't want to pressure her. And...I sent her a friend request on Facebook during the 3 months and she had rejected it so I ghosted her. Yes, this meant on her first day upon returning I ignored her completely, I wouldn't be surprised if that alone killed any attraction she had for me.

But she didn't do anything, she didn't go out of her way to speak to me, didn't ask what was wrong. That was the issue with her, she was too mysterious and introvert that I forgave her mixed signals. And if it hasn't been clear, because of her nature any minor IOIs she gave me, I would take it out of proportion.

3 days later, I broke. I started interactions with her, and told her that it was I who had sent her a friend request, she said that because I used a fake name she didn't recognise me. After that, it didn't seem like my ghosting affected her at all. She behaved with me as she usually had done, and I took that as a positive sign.

Also, she didn't send me back a friend request.

I asked her out a couple of days ago, and not only did she reject joining me to going out (saying she's not like that) but also lied and said that she doesn't have a phone when I told her to give me her number. It kind of hurts, because she used her phone in front of me today, she doesn't even try to hide it.

That was Wednesday, and I made all these excuses for her, "oh she's shy, she was with her friends when I asked her out, maybe she'll give me her number this week" or "maybe she'll notice I'm ignoring her and she'll try to go out of her way to get my attention" or "maybe she's stressed out with exams, she's a very clever girl."

Friday has passed and she didn't do anything. I should add, I doubt she's shy, just introvert. And she's seen me game other women, so pre-selection/social proof was no good to her.

We only have 90 days until High School for us ends and we go to college, who knows? Maybe she'll decide to finally make a move? I don't know.

==The Point==

My point being is that in my case, whatever I do. My (former)-oneitis will still be breathing, she'll still be walking on 2 legs and she'll still be continuing to get great grades and having a chance at having a bright future.

If I die, she won't be affected (I doubt it), I'm ignoring her, she isn't being affected (she isn't showing any change in attitudes).

You crying isn't going to change how she thinks of you, you wasting time on her isn't going to change anything.

Whoever gets her will either be one of the luckiest men in the world or one of the unluckiest men.

She is stoic, clever, mysterious and possibly from a rich background (she has a nice phone and I overheard her offering to pay for her friend's lunch once).

But everyone is fighting a battle somewhere. I overheard her saying she wants to move out, something about her father. Why would a South Asian Muslim girl that had recently come to the Western World want that? Perhaps her grades are a symbol of her determination to get a good job? I don't know but it shouldn't matter to me.

This feeling I have for her right now. I want her to be in the same room. I just want to feel her presence, but not acknowledge it.

The only thing I can do now are lifting, continue improving my grades and my status/SMV.

Because women don't give a shit if you're dying, they only care when you're living.

If she does come back to me, I'll make sure that if anything, she'll be a Fuck Buddy. I was thinking Friends with Benefits but I can't be bothered with her, she's too much trouble for what she's worth.

I'm just so glad that I'm keeping up a positive and strong image in front of her. I don't want to let her think that she has affected me. The ball is now in her court for I must now focus on myself.