I got a call from work today that I am laid off due to several reasons which were not necessarily my own fault. I work in a team which is working for a single customer, and they informed my company that the amount of units drop and my team concluded that they don't need as many people anymore. Me being the youngest, working part-time, and being the only one with a degree, they decided to lay me off. I had some colleagues ask me what the hell I'm doing there since I'm the only one with a degree and can find something much better, but I moved from another country and needed money asap, which is why I ended up where I was. When they explained it to me why, I could see it, and it was true. We had a few weeks where we didn't have as many units, so we were picking our nose. They expected that the units would increase, but the contrary happened. With this certainty, they had to let me go, and I would have done the same thing if I were in their seats. Note that I got a call because I am out of the country for three weeks and they wanted to let me know asap so I can find another job sooner. We understood each other, and they said they will still look if they can still use me for some other small stuff so I'm not completely without an income, but don't guarantee anything.

Am I mad? No. Do I take it personally? No, because they can't keep a person just because they like them, they have managers too who would give them shit for it. Am I upset? Sort of. I hoped I could work there for another 2 months after my studies so I could look around for other jobs without missing out on income. Things went a bit differently. Alot of people were moving from team to team, and people get laid off quite often so it's nothing unexpected.

So I either can start bawling that I lost my job and wonder what the hell I am supposed to do besides looking for another job like a lunatic and be depressed while I'm at it. But instead, I decided to use this free time to work on my physique, finish the project I have been working on which otherwise would kill most of my free time during a fulltime job, and just try to live on the very minimum that I can without hurting myself. I will explore some towns in my surrounding, find some nice places, and take my camera with me to exploit my hobby while traveling a bit around. The study has exhausted me mentally, and from my point of view it's a good opportunity to revitalize and prepare myself for an upcoming carreer. It goes without saying that I will apply and that it's alright, as long as I do something truly meaningful with my day.

Things like these happen. Companies don't think about you, only about themselves. And if they do, they do it because it benefits them. And the truth is that this works with relationships aswell. You're not friends with someone who only takes, you're friends with people who offer you something you look for and you offer them something they look for in return. This can be as simple as having similar interests like mountainbiking and having more fun together than alone. You don't go mountainbiking with someone who's a whiny bitch all the time and suck the life out of you. That's obvious, but you get the contrast.

I'm not talking about "this is fate" bullshit or any of that, or that this is a sign that I should do something different. I just take a situation, look at what truly happened, and try to make the best of it. Not by accepting it, but by exploiting what I can do more with it, enhance the positives and see if I can lower the negatives.

What do I do now? My time is worth money, but with my time I can also generate a better mental state, educate myself more, improve my physique. Nothing in life is free, time is not money, but time is value. A good physique is valuable, a good mental state is valuable education is valuable. Don't waste it. Value is more than money.