I’ve always been fairly decent at pulling girls. Even from a young age. I lost my virginity at 13 years of age and I’ve fucked over 50 girls in the 9 years since, whilst being in 4 different ‘relationships’ for 5 years of that time.
My mother got sectioned when I was 7 years old for bipolar/depression/being the craziest woman on the planet. She tied me to a chair and put our border terrier in the oven and I watched it cook and scratch the oven door as she proceeded to try and hang her herself whilst my father was on tour in Iraq.
Subsequently 8 months later my father left my mother and took me with him and he found a new wife.
4 years later and my father goes on tour to Iraq again, this time I’m under the care of my step-mother who abused me, kicked me, called me names and treated me completely differently to the other kids (she had 3 girls, a set of twins 10 years younger than me and a girl 6 months older than me.)
She kicks me out of the house and I go to live with one of my friends foster dads. He groomed me for over 6 months to trust him enough to go and live with him, and he raped me over the course of a month, but at 11 years old he was like my dad and I trusted him and I knew it was wrong but I accepted it, some how, I don’t really know how, but I did and I had no one to turn to, as my mother’s side of the family had disowned me due to my mother’s situation with my father, and my fathers parents aren’t very close to him either.
When my father got back I moved in again like nothing had happened, my father knew I lived with the guy but he didn’t want marriage number 2 to fail.
After being exposed to what I had been exposed to, by the age of 11, my brain and my body had just gone completely numb. I could not feel anything anymore, I didn’t work properly anymore.
After things like that, I don’t know, your body and mind just begin to forget and you repair. It’s almost like I’ve watched it on tv and I can see it all happening so vividly in my mind but it’s okay now.
I didn’t tell the police until I was 18 years old, I got drunk one night with an ex girlfriend and a documentary about pedophiles came on the tv and I broke down and told her everything. She told me to tell my father and his new wife, my now current step mum. (The 2nd wife divorce raped him after 5 years and now he’s married a 3rd time, when will he learn)
I told them, one summers evening a few weeks after and that’s the only time I’ve ever seen my father cry, the pedophile got 18 years in prison (9 inside and 9 on licence) and a lifetime on the sex offenders register and he also raped 8 other boys from the ages of 9-14 between the period of 2006 (I was his first) and 2013.
Now, why is this all relevant, when the tile is Irrational Confidence? Because now as a 22 year old guy, I am honestly in a position where I have been through so much emotional hardship, that the person I am right now is so irrationally confident about everything because I know I can cope with anything.
Nothing scares me. I know I have the mental robustness to withstand anything anyone can say/do to me. Of course I am not indestructible and if I get stabbed, shot, run over by a car, that is unlucky. I’m talking about everything else.
And that is truly why I can fuck girls. I get told all the time that I am literally the most confident person they have ever met and it gets them wet. Coupled with the fact that over the past 10 months since finding this gem of a sub I am now in the best physical condition I have ever been in and I have learnt a lot more about game and building my kingdom.
I’m a Maths Teacher, I have a Mechanical Engineering degree and I’m 6ft 1. So that all helps me in the realms of I have a job, I got lucky in the gene pool and I’m intelligent. But apart from that, it’s all just irrational confidence. I’m talking literally not being scared of anything whatsoever.
So focus on yourself, believe in who you are and become irrationally confident about yourself and it will truly help you in all aspects of your life.