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Irrational Confidence

by Burt3d on /r/TheRedPill
11 November 2017 11:26 AM UTC
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I’ve always been fairly decent at pulling girls. Even from a young age. I lost my virginity at 13 years of age and I’ve fucked over 50 girls in the 9 years since, whilst being in 4 different ‘relationships’ for 5 years of that time.

My mother got sectioned when I was 7 years old for bipolar/depression/being the craziest woman on the planet. She tied me to a chair and put our border terrier in the oven and I watched it cook and scratch the oven door as she proceeded to try and hang her herself whilst my father was on tour in Iraq.

Subsequently 8 months later my father left my mother and took me with him and he found a new wife.

4 years later and my father goes on tour to Iraq again, this time I’m under the care of my step-mother who abused me, kicked me, called me names and treated me completely differently to the other kids (she had 3 girls, a set of twins 10 years younger than me and a girl 6 months older than me.)

She kicks me out of the house and I go to live with one of my friends foster dads. He groomed me for over 6 months to trust him enough to go and live with him, and he raped me over the course of a month, but at 11 years old he was like my dad and I trusted him and I knew it was wrong but I accepted it, some how, I don’t really know how, but I did and I had no one to turn to, as my mother’s side of the family had disowned me due to my mother’s situation with my father, and my fathers parents aren’t very close to him either.

When my father got back I moved in again like nothing had happened, my father knew I lived with the guy but he didn’t want marriage number 2 to fail.

After being exposed to what I had been exposed to, by the age of 11, my brain and my body had just gone completely numb. I could not feel anything anymore, I didn’t work properly anymore.

After things like that, I don’t know, your body and mind just begin to forget and you repair. It’s almost like I’ve watched it on tv and I can see it all happening so vividly in my mind but it’s okay now.

I didn’t tell the police until I was 18 years old, I got drunk one night with an ex girlfriend and a documentary about pedophiles came on the tv and I broke down and told her everything. She told me to tell my father and his new wife, my now current step mum. (The 2nd wife divorce raped him after 5 years and now he’s married a 3rd time, when will he learn)

I told them, one summers evening a few weeks after and that’s the only time I’ve ever seen my father cry, the pedophile got 18 years in prison (9 inside and 9 on licence) and a lifetime on the sex offenders register and he also raped 8 other boys from the ages of 9-14 between the period of 2006 (I was his first) and 2013.

Now, why is this all relevant, when the tile is Irrational Confidence? Because now as a 22 year old guy, I am honestly in a position where I have been through so much emotional hardship, that the person I am right now is so irrationally confident about everything because I know I can cope with anything.

Nothing scares me. I know I have the mental robustness to withstand anything anyone can say/do to me. Of course I am not indestructible and if I get stabbed, shot, run over by a car, that is unlucky. I’m talking about everything else.

And that is truly why I can fuck girls. I get told all the time that I am literally the most confident person they have ever met and it gets them wet. Coupled with the fact that over the past 10 months since finding this gem of a sub I am now in the best physical condition I have ever been in and I have learnt a lot more about game and building my kingdom.

I’m a Maths Teacher, I have a Mechanical Engineering degree and I’m 6ft 1. So that all helps me in the realms of I have a job, I got lucky in the gene pool and I’m intelligent. But apart from that, it’s all just irrational confidence. I’m talking literally not being scared of anything whatsoever.

So focus on yourself, believe in who you are and become irrationally confident about yourself and it will truly help you in all aspects of your life.

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Title Irrational Confidence
Author Burt3d
Upvotes 771
Date 11 November 2017 11:26 AM UTC (2 years ago)
Subreddit TheRedPill
Link https://theredarchive.com/post/47071
Original Link https://old.reddit.com/r/TheRedPill/comments/7c7x3c/irrational_confidence/
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288 upvotespragmaticminimalist2 years ago

You are a warrior and a survivor- embrace that pedigree- it makes you the king you are today- great post- it reminded me of Ray Lamontange lyrics-

Well I looked my demons in the eyes Lay bare my chest Said do your best To destroy me

See I've been to hell and back So many times I must admit You kinda bore me

1 upvoteswhatifitsfun2 years ago

I get told all the time that I am literally the most confident person they have ever met and it gets them wet. What makes people tell you that you're the most confident person they've ever met? What is it that makes you appear confident to people?

So focus on yourself, believe in who you are and become irrationally confident about yourself and it will truly help you in all aspects of your life.


  1. Your confidence has a solid, multifaceted foundation (survived shit childhood, have a job, education, girls, etc). It's pretty rational.

  2. Going through hell builds confidence.

So if someone wants to become as confident as you are, they would need to take on the biggest, baddest task and go all in, to the point of a mental breakdown and beyond.

This was better than some guy writing about his stinky penis and breath a few days ago. Thanks for sharing.

32 upvotesvengefully_yours2 years ago

You hit on it. The thing that builds confidence the best is achievement in spite of adversity.

12 upvotesBurt3d [OP]2 years ago

I’m truly fearless of judgement in anything that I say. If I fancy somebody, I’m not worrying about their reaction, I just tell them. I’m a fun guy, I do fun things all the time that I want to do. Hey, I want to play the new COD WWII and drink whiskey, fuck yeah I’m gunna do it. I want to go and hike for 3 days and camp out and eat sausages, I’ll do that too. I want to go and talk to that girl near the bar because she reminds me of the crush I had on my babysitter, let’s go. If it doesn’t work out, doesn’t happen to often anymore, now I’ve learnt a lot on here, fuck it, on to the next one, she’s missing out.

I’m so over the thought of rejection, it’s not even bad and I’m so much more happy with the odd awkward situation that the feeling of fuck I should’ve approached.

1 upvotes_MysticFox2 years ago

Why does having a shit childhood and a hellish experience build confidence? It set me behind.

7 upvotesMessianicJuice2 years ago

It partly depends on how you frame it, and is also partly due to unknown factors. Some people are driven to become "survivors" and derive some satisfaction from it as a way of coping with the pain by repressing it etc. Others feel too deeply and are crushed.

2 upvotesplainposter2 years ago

it all depends on how you look at it. i thank my mother for being the craziest bitch on the planet because now i know when to dissociate from my emotions when people are being fucking retards. since my mother could never give me unconditional love, and probably saw us loving her as a weakness, i learned to turn my emotions off, which helps in dealing with people -- i can sort of manipulate people to my will now, and it's very relieving -- finally, knowing that i'm not at the mercy of some fucking retard and i can actually get my way in life.. so satisfying.

2 upvoteseffitdude2 years ago

Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars.

-Kahlil Gibran

1 upvotes • [deleted] • 2 years ago

It depends on how you deal with it

46 upvotesBeast___Mode2 years ago

Now because you got through all of that shit, I am sure you will be a great father because you know the price for happy childhood. You are a warrior.

That pedophile must be suffering right now cause pedophiles are getting fucked up in prison. He deserves that.

55 upvotesBurt3d [OP]2 years ago

I don’t want kids, or a wife, but thanks anyway mate.

19 upvotesjumpinglane2 years ago

maybe one day. you are still very young, don't expect to have the same thought patterns ten years from now.

32 upvotesvengefully_yours2 years ago

I'm him without the rape, but more death and beatings. He will think exactly the same at 50 as he does at 22. We are not like you. You change as you grow, we were forced to change early and live with fucked up shit.

I tried to fit your world, it didn't work. I'm in a different universe interacting with the one you're in.

8 upvotesGenghisKhanSpermShot2 years ago

Nonsense, there are people from fucked up backgrounds that change views, some want marriage and kids some don't from all backgrounds.

16 upvotesSkayruss2 years ago

Who the fuck would settle down, in this day and age?

Take a lesson from this man’s story.

3 upvotesgreenlittleman2 years ago

Some people would and some people wouldn't. People can take pleasure from raising their kids.

-15 upvotes • [deleted] • 2 years ago

Don’t talk about what happens in prison unless you’ve been. You have no fucking idea.

16 upvotesBeast___Mode2 years ago

You don't have to be in prison to know that pedophiles are getting fucked up there. That's common knowledge.

14 upvotesomega_dawg932 years ago

I've got several friends that have been to prison. their words: "pedophiles get bad bad treatment from the other inmates... and very harsh treatment from the guards too."

140 upvotesSnufek2 years ago

I'm honestly speechless. The simple fact that you're able to function is astonishing, I'd without a doubt be a wreck at this point.

Hope you can carry on and have a decent life, you're a beast, brother.

3 upvotesgreenlittleman2 years ago

You can't know how would you react in his situation at his age. Kids still don't know "how world should function" and so they are much more adaptive compared to most adults. There is even some possibility OP's confidence goes from coping some of behaviour of his rapist and getting laid with this early on. I think most guys can get laid in their 12-14 if they really take initiative with the girls. And after that your confidence with them starts to building up naturally.

3 upvotesSnufek2 years ago

Yeah, could be this way. Also missing the window of opportunity that you mentioned, so not getting laid till your late teens/early 20s, could mean that you you have nothing to build on and thus the fear and anxiety which bring you further down.

32 upvotesvengefully_yours2 years ago

I didn't get raped by a man, but had a similar life. Made me into a sociopath with ptsd, and other fun things. I went military and war felt like home.

I too have this confidence others find surreal, or inconceivable. The shit I've been through and not only survived and endured, but thrived and came out far stronger than most ever could be, has shown me that I can handle it. Whatever it is. After coming so close to death that you can smell it and you have to wash it off, girls are the least intimidating thing imaginable. They're playthings, fun adorable intelligent at times, but all toys. Death does not frighten me, people do not either, I'll do what I want and their input is not needed.

Abuse when we're kids either makes you into a monster of some sort, either the same that created you or something dark and lurking under the surface of a placid numbness, our it breaks you and you stay the victim for life.

I think you're the monster that has yet to come out. I know the thing inside me well, that fucker is nuts. Get to know yours, or you'll end up in prison when he comes out.

230 upvotes • [deleted] • 2 years ago

I would've killed myself already, you're a very strong person, congratulations.

21 upvotesvengefully_yours2 years ago

While it's happening you endure it because you don't know anything else. It's only later when you realize that most people don't grow up without people they can trust and count on, or without people trying to kill you, that you get pissed about it.

You end up alone for life, and you start to enjoy it after a couple decades. It is fucked up but it makes you stronger if you fight against it.

18 upvotes • [deleted] • 2 years ago

I think you would surprise yourself. The will to live is strong

30 upvotestherhymerr2 years ago

So harsh but so true. Fuck man this world can be completely fucked sometimes. It doesn’t owe us anything and can take everything

67 upvotestropzumuch2 years ago

Human race is disgusting, glad to hear that you came out so well. I think most people would breaks over such a path. Thank you for sharing, your message was a little like a ‚sudden‘ realization. You go man

0 upvotesplainposter2 years ago

yeah i wouldn't mind if there were another genocide or two.. just wipe most of these fuckers out man.. get rid of em.. fucks sakes

46 upvotesdongpal2 years ago

you are 22 years old and a math teacher with mechanical engineering degree?

31 upvotesWireframe8882 years ago

In the UK thats entirely plausible. Standard BEng takes 3 years and a PGCE teaching cert is a year. If you started uni at 18 that'd make you 22.

15 upvotescrazymonezyy2 years ago

I graduated with a 4 year engineering degree at 21, I was put in school at the age of three and started college at the age of 17. OP's thing isn't a big deal, although I'm not in the US.

-4 upvotesLongSchlongAIDS2 years ago

That’s strange, in the US you have to have a masters to teach at public schools and most (if not all) professors have PhDs. Assuming you are a freshman in college at the age of 18 like most college students you would have an undergraduate degree at the age of 22 and then a masters would take at a minimum one year of study but it’s more commonly two years so 23-24 years old once a masters is completed. So I don’t know how he completed mechanical engineering and was able to qualify as a teacher at such a young age.

5 upvotesdpaul19972 years ago

I'm pretty sure that it's not legally required to have a masters to teach in public school

2 upvotesLongSchlongAIDS2 years ago

I guess I’m partially wrong. There’s recently been a shortage of teachers in the economy so some states removed the masters requirement but, it isn’t uncommon for the state to have you complete a masters while teaching within the first five years after obtaining a bachelors.

I had the perception that all teachers had to complete a masters cause growing up I remember all my teachers having done so.

1 upvotesdpaul19972 years ago

It's reasonable, and would be ideal. But I had some teachers in high school that I thought should still be there finishing up their classes.

30 upvotesSkayruss2 years ago

If you haven’t gotten therapy, get it. I don’t care how irrationally confident you are. Damage like that in the childhood development phase can cause issues down the road, if not now, then later.

Men’s mental health is a serious issue.

8 upvotesbroccoli492 years ago

Your right man, OP please listen to him and go see a psychiatrist or smtn. It's really important.

11 upvotesvengefully_yours2 years ago

Therapy is near useless for he and I. Especially the feminine centric shit they do. What works best is knowing that today nobody can fuck with us the way they did when we were too small to do anything about it. I call it "the baddest mother fucker in the valley" mentality. Realize that you can end them easily, and all that shit fades. Fucked me up for 30 years, trying to fit in with the rest of you. I don't try anymore, I am who I am and don't give a fuck what you think.

People like me far better as who I am than me trying to fit in with so called society. I simply do not kill them, and let them go about their bullshit lives.

21 upvotesSkayruss2 years ago

That’s a stupid mentality. I went to a red pilled motherfucker and I took my own lessons out of it. Always be willing to learn from your fellow man. There are professionals out there who don’t try to force you to conform, rather help you come to your own conclusion. Mental health is a serious issue.

Besides, most guys here are beta or recovering betas. Acting like a “bad motherfucker” is posturing and most people see right through it.

-1 upvotesKafkaevsky2 years ago

who said OP has mental issues. Trauma does not necessarily cause mental issues, plus people have been through worse and still thrived.

1 upvotesSkayruss2 years ago

Doesn’t matter. Repressed trauma will rear it’s ugly head when he’s older. You don’t fuck around with shit like that, and you certainly don’t posture, seeing the responses that the EC gave.

1 upvotesKafkaevsky2 years ago

Who said so. Not everyone is like that.

1 upvotesPsshtatay2 years ago

What was your issue and how did therapy help?

1 upvotesMartel_732_Tours2 years ago

Feminised societal advice is bad for your average man, but even worse for someone who has experienced unnatural childhood trauma.

1 upvotesPsshtatay2 years ago

Fuck that. I can't believe the Reddit therapy worship circle jerk.has infiltrated TRP

1 upvotesoscarpaca2 years ago

Try Jordan Peterson's past authoring suite instead

7 upvotes • [deleted] • 2 years ago

this is adversity and accomplishment. the only thing that gets you started is irrational self confidence.

but when you turn things around and start to win enough, it switches from being irrational self confidence to rational self confidence.

5 upvotesguccigoggle2 years ago

You are very strong person mentally, but do you think at any time you formed habits or coping mechanisms that were negative? Did you ever go after girls purely for pleasure and not the real connection, just straight sex because sex feels good and in your mind you wanted to feel good? Just curious. Thanks

4 upvotesBurt3d [OP]2 years ago

I’ve always used girls for pleasure really, even emotional pleasure. I don’t need girls, nor want them. I definitely use girls, but not in a bad way. I’m always clear that I do not want an emotional connection with any of them, but I fancy them sure and sex is a great thing. If you’re looking for someone serious I’m not your guy, fuck I’ll even help you find him, but I’m the right guy in the mean time.

10 upvoteszeussingh2 years ago

Thats a lot to go through and i cant imagine how you got by it. But the fact that you did would give great hope to a lot of people.

Salute to you brother !!

5 upvoteswendysNO1wcheese2 years ago

Jesus fucking Christ, that’s quite the cheery ol’ story to wake up to.

I’d keep a very close account of how you feel. A lot of people don’t just magically heal from that shit, if true.

2 upvotesBurt3d [OP]2 years ago

I’m fine, honesty. But thank you.

1 upvotesDeusVultRightNow2 years ago

Jesus Christ

How clueless can a person be? Talking about your father here.

9 upvotesDoNotEatTheTail2 years ago

Agreed, but remember how much many of us have learned from trp. Ignorance is the default state.

3 upvotes • [deleted] • 2 years ago

You are incredibly strong mentally. Kudos to getting over such depressing experiences to become someone to be proud of.

3 upvotes • [deleted] • 2 years ago

thanks OP, youve got some big stones to put this out there. women are fun playing; humans are crappy. in general, whatever success and progress you can gain is more than hard earned. while I didnt endure the experiences you have, you're a wiser man than I , to address this , and to seek communication, and relation, as young as you have. two steps forward, three steps back, is a common plight for survivors. I recently read something, "Nation" by terry brooks. Men help other men. is the message. some people can't live it down. you're the type that's figured out how to "live Above it". solid post. be well, my brutha

3 upvotesCairnsian2 years ago

A broken, scarred 22 year old maths teacher that fucks. Congratulations.

6 upvotes • [deleted] • 2 years ago

Biggest challenge now: actually forming a healthy lasting bond with a woman.

I️ know: wrong sub for that.

2 upvotesneytax2 years ago

Wow dude, lot's of respect what you've been through and how you coped with it! Also in case you did not recieve complete healing, I wish that you do so, but I'm sure you'll handle that too! Forgiveness might be really important here, be blessed!

2 upvotesasfasfsadzzzz2 years ago

Man. I've been through so much shit in life and it's still hard from time to time.

Props to you

2 upvotesaga0802 years ago

damn dude...im sorry to hear about what you went through

2 upvotesMorphs_2 years ago

Interesting post. It goes to show that even the most horrible experiences can grant you something useful in the long run. It's great that you recognize this strength. Applauding to you sir.

Meanwhile, my upbringing was pretty much effortless with virtually no trauma. So what did that result in? I grew up as a socially scared guy, scared of most people. Scared to get into fights. Fleeing rather than fighting. Hooked on porn. It resulted in some real social fears. With regards to other men I have trouble urinating in public urinals and towards women I have performance anxiety and trouble getting an erection when in bed with a new woman.

Of course comparing our stories is an apples and pears thing, but in a general sense it shows that overcoming hardship can result in tremendous strength, while the lack of hardship can lead to weakness and fear.

2 upvotesstaytrue19852 years ago

Were you confident earlier in life? At age 13? 17? 20?

2 upvotesBurt3d [OP]2 years ago

Yes mate. Never really lost the natural boyhood confidence that got me through the first 11 years, as it was the only thing I had.

2 upvotesTeapot_Dragon2 years ago

When put under pressure coal can crumble or turn to diamond. Not everyone can go through what you went through and come out a champion. You're an inspiration and I hope your coming years go well.

2 upvotestelluwhut2 years ago

I think you’re not hard enough on your dad. He chose fucked up women to have relationships with and left you in their care.

2 upvoteseggAMA2 years ago

This...this post is possibly one of the best I have ever seen. Honestly, im amazed you had the mental strength to go through that. I have a question or two for you tho:

1- I get that you need confidence. However, how should I stop myself from, instead saying something that sounds confident, something that is actually horrible or too far.

2- What does an interaction of confidence look like for you? I dont really have any frame of reference for that. How would you speak and act?

3 upvotesBurt3d [OP]2 years ago

If you do, never apologise and role with it. It’s who you and are people just accept it if you’re unapologetic about it. And I just say everything I want to say. I am very self deprecating in my comedy and I’m fearless in response to anything I get.

1 upvoteseggAMA2 years ago

Thank you, that really helps. But in terms of apologizing, is never always the answer? Like is you end up insulting someone badly by accident or similar things? Or is there a way to apologize without apologizing directly

2 upvotes • [deleted] • 2 years ago

Defintion of a Chad. Good on you, OP.

2 upvotesDopeMeme_Deficiency2 years ago

Welcome to being a man. Shit keeps on coming, and we keep on pluggin. Its amazing the resiliency we have as humans, and being pushed to the point of breaking is what it takes to awaken it. Its the reason for the intense training for spec ops. Once you've seen what you can push through and still come out shining, theres not a lot that can be put in front of you that seems daunting. Good job buddy, go slay this life

2 upvotesSpaceCowboy1212 years ago

Its funny how one can grow numb to everything after so much shit. My childhood was interesting but nowhere at your level. Ive just lost literally everything recently yet it doesnt phase me at all. Its almost scary which is why, like others have said, is to seek some sort of therapy still. Going insane only takes a light push.

I do commend you on how well youve pushed yourself forward in life. I wish nothing but the best from here on out

2 upvotesTheDeadlyZebra2 years ago

Have you tested yourself for Dark Triad traits, OP? Your background seems consistent (narcissism, Machiavellianism, and psychopathy).

I have high M and Psychopathy, but zero Narcissism, which is my problem. Narcissism is probably the most correlated with success. If anyone knows how to boost it, that would help me

1 upvotesBurt3d [OP]2 years ago

Can you link me to the test you did?

1 upvotesFreePotatoFries2 years ago

Yeah it would be interesting to see your scores on dark triad test given your past and your sense of confidence. Here's a link to one of those tests: https://openpsychometrics.org/tests/SD3/

2 upvotesSoulRedemption2 years ago

I am overwhelmed and happy about how you have been able to handle all that. You truly are in a great path and that mindset of yours is a gem. Go at it bro

2 upvotesPM_ME_UR_MARIO_PORN2 years ago

"After a night in fight club, everything in the real world got the volume turned down"

2 upvotes • [deleted] • 2 years ago

Thanks for sharing your story, bro. Glad to know you're doing really well for yourself.

2 upvotesTrooper_18682 years ago

No one should have to go through that man. Kudos for coming out on top. Im 24 and that scenario makes me tremble I cant imagine as a 7 year old.

2 upvoteszboo1h2 years ago

Jesus Christ man good for you. I'm absolutely not trying to compete with you in the Child Abuse Survivors Olympics, but I went through some pretty insane shit as a child due to a mother almost as crazy as yours, and I completely understand your "irrational confidence". When you grow up with a monster in the house, nothing can really phase you when you're an adult.

2 upvotesthe_real_lunch_box2 years ago

Man i read this getting more astonished by each sentence as you explained it. I have nothing to be sad about, you really opened my eyes dude. Most shit in life is nothing to be worried about, since you survived so much worse. Thank you for sharing this.

2 upvotesThomasHobbesROK2 years ago

Very interesting post.

I feel we're opposites in some ways - I think by any standards I had a very stable childhood (parents still together and everything) and took a long time to come out of my shell. Hell I had something of a phobia of making phone calls till I got my first job at 18, had zero success with women till my 20s.

Kudos to you sir.

2 upvotesLuckyluke232 years ago

Reading this shocked me to my core. I kind of understand why I do most of the shit I do. And why.

2 upvotesLuckyluke232 years ago

Reading this shocked me to my core. I kind of understand why I do most of the shit I do. And why.

That's ks for posting man... I learnt a lot from this

3 upvotesxn28the-pos2 years ago

So, your life took you through terrible struggles. You're emotionally unstable. And you're bragging about the way you treat people based on that. Sounds like a healthy role model.

1 upvotesNoveno2 years ago

OP, how did you proved that guy raped you after that much time?

2 upvotesBurt3d [OP]2 years ago

I just told the police, they gathered all the evidence they could and it turned out he admitted it all on the interview anyway. He new he needed help, but was too fucked it and scared to get it. Their words, not mine.

1 upvotesPsychocist2 years ago

I would have likely killed him and then killed myself.

I lost my mum last year, and I found it astonishing that I managed to pull through without topping myself. I don't think we understand just how resilient we can be. Even that is incomparable to the kind of suffering you've managed to overcome... truly, incredible.

Have you thought about getting involved with abused children? Sounds like an ideal mission (if you don't have one).

1 upvotesCallMeHaseo2 years ago

whatever happened to your mom?

1 upvotesBurt3d [OP]2 years ago

She lives in monitored accommodation, is morbidly obese and has a pet chihuahua. I’m not making this up.

1 upvotesCallMeHaseo2 years ago

I can't grasp why your dad chose her...🤔

1 upvotes • [deleted] • 2 years ago

Thanks for sharing your story man. I had a fucked up childhood too, maybe not as bad as yours but saw some shit and got molested and generally abused by a family member growing up too. My mom is also crazy bipolar and was such a bad drunk I thought I was gonna find her dead on the couch every time I came home from high school and work. She tried to kill herself one night and my grandma got the cops to lock her up for her own safety.

I get what you're saying by not fearing anything anymore. Personally for me this lead to hanging on the wrong side of the tracks where I started to do lots of criminal shit as a teenager. I've been arrested 5 times for different stuff from general vandalism to drinking in public to fighting.

I think our childhood impact can lead to very risk taking behaviors. I'm older now and luckily never had to do a bid in jail past just spending the night in a cell and getting dragged through court. But as I matured, I realized there was some "toxic" behaviors I needed to fix. I think it's important we stay wary of that impulsivity and don't let it get the best of us. It's hard to give a fuck about getting locked up when you've seen some dark shit and been to dark places but it's also important to maintain your freedom for your own good.

Thanks again for sharing.

1 upvotesunptitdej2 years ago

Are you sure it's confidence or it's just that you don't fear much, given all the emotional trauma? Empty inside at times? I can relate a bit because I often I feel empty and non emotional. I also don't have a lot of stress for many things. When I do get stressed or angry, it's because I did something that angers my own ego.

If your story is true, I'm truly story. Let's be better than the last generation!

1 upvotesDONT_reply_with_THIS2 years ago

Dude.. Get some MDMA/Mushroom therapy asap..

Did your dog die in the oven?

1 upvotesloofy_goofy2 years ago

You father is a disgusting piece of shit and human garbage. There are crazy women, pedophiles, etc in your story.

But there is also one big fucking traitor who caused all the suffering, who were marrying crazies and leaving his kid alone with them.

Hope your daddy will learn about responsibility one day and go hang himself, although probably the old fart would just die from some kind of cancer. Again, hope it would be slow.

1 upvotesSSJ_Trunks2 years ago

Man you should really delete the part of the dog in the oven, that has me shook.

1 upvotesShavedApel2 years ago

Didn't you technically lose your virginity at 11 then...

1 upvotesSKRedPill1 year ago

The two greatest forms of confidence are confidence that does not know what fear or consequences are

And confidence that has seen, survived and thrived with everything that heaven and hell can throw at it.

-4 upvotesBowserJewnior2 years ago

I seriously can't believe you faggots upvoted this. This would be a nice story for Oprah, but it has almost no genuine intellectual or pedagogical value in relation to this sub's topics. It's just a collection of worthless platitudes. "Hurr durr belief in urself gaiz!" Wow, I've never thought of that one before!

11 upvotesrporion2 years ago

Oh I believe him.

I also believe that he is no way healed and that his IDGAF attitude which probably works wonders with women is because his soul is irreparably damaged.

I am very, very sure that anyone who goes through something like that is by no means "ok" at the tender age of 22, I do believe however that the "machiavellian" machinations of todays tinderellas have no effect on him whatsoever.

I wonder what that says about todays society, where severe childhood trauma makes you, um, "romantically" succesful.

2 upvotesSpaceCowboy1212 years ago

Fuck, that last part really makes you think. Our society is really fucked up

0 upvotestwy12312352 years ago

you're 22 and extremely low IQ, figured that out by the end of the first sentence. and that was enough for me. godawful post, terrible brain.

Says a lot about this quality of this sub when ape brain mentality bs like this gets upvoted.

1 upvotesImadethisuponthespot2 years ago

You went through all that, and now you take advantage of other people? That fucking sucks.

1 upvoteswhatifitsfun2 years ago

What made you think he now takes advantage of other people? I genuinely don't understand.

1 upvotesImadethisuponthespot2 years ago

He’s just fucking girls as much as he can. This whole sub is about people that view women as objects, not human beings.

He was taken advantage of by someone to be used for sexual pleasure. Now he takes advantage of women to use them for sexual pleasure.

6 upvotesTheRedMumbaikar2 years ago

This sub just helps men bring women down from the pedestals on which men themselves have placed women. If anything, this sub makes us view women as humans rather than the Princesses or Goddesses we used to make them out to be.

And no one's 'taking advantage' of women. We work on ourselves, make ourselves attractive and women who find us attractive have sex with us. I really don't see the 'taking advantage' part of it.

2 upvoteseggAMA2 years ago

Now he takes advantage of women to use them for sexual pleasure.

As long as its consensual how is he taking advantage of them?

1 upvotesnewName5434562 years ago

Has it never occurred to you that women may want just sexual pleasure too?

1 upvotesImadethisuponthespot2 years ago

So...you’ve never actually spoken to a woman, have you?

1 upvotesnewName5434562 years ago

Rather you've never actually pleased one :3

-9 upvotes • [deleted] • 2 years ago

No wonder you get so much pussy. Girls love that story of struggle and hardship. Not to mention the dog??! Those girls must be putty in your hand once you tell them about that

2 upvotes • [deleted] • 2 years ago

No, they don't. And OP doesn't talk about these things either -- you'll notice that the first mention of any of these hardships was a fluke where the OP broke down during a documentary. I strongly suspect they keep it buried because that is what is best for them as far as women are concerned. There is nothing wrong with therapy, but don't place the burden on your prospective dates. Not only are thots beyond unqualified to give you life advice, but there is no quicker way to destroy your frame.

This is the BP version of game that many people follow before finding this sub. I did it, you did it, many other people here have done it but have since learned there is a better way. BP game only yields BB relationships with very insecure girls. Even if you're in the market for a LTR, you don't want to start off like this.

This story contains a lot of shocking events that would force a person to either grow and adapt or curl up in a ball and die.

If I had the mental clarity, I would vent that anger and frustration to a healthy outlet, like the gym. I would sever all ties to the family members who are fucked up in the head and I'd do everything in my power to ensure I don't end up like them.

I'd hope I could learn from it. Figure out where my mother snapped, or where my uncle became corrupted. And then, get this: avoid that shit.

I suspect there is a long line of sexual abuse in OP's family. Sexual abusers tend to be those who have been sexually abused themselves.

Maybe this post is OP's way of venting.

I'd hope I would consider therapy.

1 upvotes • [deleted] • 2 years ago

Yea I see what you mean. I’m also noting however how he ends it by saying he’s “not afraid of anything”, in my opinion this sounds like a success story more than a vent or something for therapy. It looks more like the outcome of therapy

0 upvotesMrCompleteRealism2 years ago

Black guys are kings of irrational confidence. They have nothing to be proud of and women do not want the, yet they continuously embarrass themselves. There is a limit to confidence and deserved confidence.

-3 upvotesLo-G2 years ago

I do not believe that just focusing on yourself will bring this self-confidence you talk about.

One must actually put oneself through as much hardship as possible to get there. No book can simulate the pain your brain went through as you were raped. No amount of meditation will teach anyone the testicular fortitude you gained by repairing yourself from such damage.

If you want to be strong, put yourself under as much stress as you can handle (way more than what you think you can handle).

-3 upvotesappolo112 years ago

Too long. Don't give a fuck.

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