It's been about 2 months with this girl I am seeing and I am actually still surprised how the female mind works. It started as a casual meetup, after which I banged her on the same evening. She turned out to be pretty cool, so we started seeing each other (and fucking each other) more often. She was totally into it, constantly kissing my ass and praising me like a god for anything I did or how I looked. Eventually she started to push me into the relationship label, because she had the feels just after our first night. I didn't want to name it anything, and just enjoy it as it is, but she kept pushing and eventually I caved, just to see where this would go and accepted the so called "dogleash" aka "relationship". After this we became long distance for a few weeks, which messes with the entire scientific comparison, but fine. She would still do all the effort to visit me and whatnot, and noticably I got softer, but did not have the feels for her.

After coming back home again, she got more distant, sex was deminishing, I felt less welcome at her place and she wasn't as enthousiastic anymore. She lost the feels, and broke up. Asking me how I feel about her and basically admitting that I actually don't feel much for her. Maybe something, but only because I'm a human and she means something to me, like my friends and family do. This was to her relieve, because she decided to stay friends aswell. Then the beta inside of me suddenly got the better of me and was thinking whether she just mirrored my response, exactly what my family said when I told them how things went down. So I invited her to a date together to talk about it, because I started to miss her and I believe that the feelings were starting (i know right). The former relieve turned into reluctance, but told her I would pick her up anyway so better get ready because I didn't care.

Date started with distance, as we walked through the park I asked more of her side, gave her my insight and understood that she was completely serious and my answer had no effect on what she would tell me from her side. This actually gave the beta inside of me relieve, and decided to stay friends, but on her condition that we keep the benefits. After realizing this, I actually felt relieve, and started to feel good, to her surprise aswell. She started to ask if I am really alright or just playing it, but I just needed like 10 minutes to process all of it and come back to my mindset about life that I always had (life is a river). Then I started to tease her about her paying for the bill to repay me for the emotional damage she caused me, started to pick a fight over it but she could not surpress her grin when we started fighting over 5 bucks and how she should blame feminism.

Next thing happens, we go to another place to hang out, she starts to get touchy, close, smiling and telling me how fucking horny she is. As a matter of fact, I also got harder and longer erections like I used to have them with her before, which got worse during our "relationship". Just last night I teased her (push and pull) and she started losing her mind how I didn't do any of the shit that she wanted me to do, telling me she won't fuck me if I continue behaving like this. She was protesting so much, but I could see that she was actually enjoying it and wanted me to give her more of it. Chicks dig the trollercoaster. We got to my place, I came out of the bathroom and she was lying naked on my bed ready to get fucked senseless. Which also explained in a way why my ex only used to fuck me when I was tired of her shit and became more distant.

It's a clear example how commitment actually kills attraction, and how freedom actually retains it. The attraction was killed as soon as there was an assumption that a person could feel bad or where actions had unwanted consequences like drama, bad feels or whatever no person would ever want to deal with and does not belong in the category "fun and careless". As soon as the commitment faded and she realized that my frame would remain unshaken, did the tingles and fun girl come back. She got room to breathe, she didn't have to worry about dealing with drama. Just like the other shittest whether her talking to another guy made me jealous (not in the slightest). She kept digging for that jealousy in me but I just couldn't give her any and she could only grin more and more. We're back to fucking like we did in the first weeks of meeting and it's a win for both.

Girls just want to have fun and they are already emotional enough by themselves. It's why they are batshit crazy because it's like their mind is constantly on drugs and hormones are fucking up their entire brain to the point that logic stops being an option. It is this kind of donkey that has already such a heavy load, that it cannot carry any bullshit that a typical Beta Billy shows up with, and hence the reason why he gets dumped. It's the reason men get dumped when they are in the worst situations (lost a job, close family member of friend died, whatever you name it). But the donkey does get excited when it finally meets the rock (Alpha Adam) on which it can lean and cannot shake its frame whatever it does (ignoring her shit tests, staying cool, going your own flow). It's actually this when you start laughing about her stupid shit tests and calling her out on them that pisses her off, yet makes her feel secure because that's all a rock can do when a donkey is punching it. The efforts are so pointless that it's funny, and she knows that it can only be ridiculous to a rock.

I feel great, I feel free, I have a friend with benefits I can have alot of fun with and still fuck around. We even agreed that she will wingwoman me to get laid on the condition that she will remain my main dish aka when her crotch is sore from fucking and I need to blow my load elsewhere. I feel peaceful and grateful for this sub. Aside from the toxic anger from incels and bitter betas, it's an amazing sub that goes straight to the point and shares reports about the behaviour of women. It was an interesting learning experience, how knowing that commitment kills attraction is not enough, and one needs to actually observe it to truly understand why it kills attraction and how.

In the end, they want a daddy/daughter dynamic, not a mother/son one. Mothers can only commit to males that came out of their own vagina. Girls just want to have fun, give them the fun and none of the emotional restrictions or baggage.