I live alone now after kicking my ex out and overall it's been a great experience. Got into crossfit, cleaned up my diet, and more time to travel and have friends over.

Out of boredom I got into a dating app that my friend told me he uses and works well for him. So I thought why not.

I started talking to several women and they all wanted to meet up. The problem was that they were all far. At least a 2-5 hour drive away.

One in particular was very aggressive and forthcoming. She sent me nudes, went into detail about how'd she fuck me, showed me pics of the food she's cooked, etc. I was tempted since she was "only" 2 and a half hours away. But I was hesitant for obvious reasons.

So I decided to use the ancient Chinese secret of post masturbation clarity and see how I felt after.

Now interestingly enough, the come down after the high of jacking off showed me how I was about to waste valuable time, and money just to get some pussy.

I was filled with so much regret and self-loathing that I had honestly never experienced it ever. Then when that feeling subsided it was replaced with absolute clarity.

I declined to go see her and instead told her to make the trek to me and to buy a room and then I'd consider it.

Then it comes out that she's a single mom living away from family and that she can't afford to do it even if she wanted to. She also spoke about being desperate for a man "with a future" to lock down. Can't make this shit up.

In the same day my ex hit me up and wanted to come see me. My conversations with her are usually very short but I noticed that my responses were becoming more sexually charged as I engaged in a little bit of flirting.

Again, I jacked off and cleared my head, realizing that if I invited her over and fucked her, I'd have to deal with her shit because there would be no way in hell that she'd just leave right after.

I gave her a quick "never mind something's come up" and even she pressed I ghosted and she kept asking me but I never responded.

All in all I stayed at home alone but my company was the only company I needed after all.