This is long, I'm writing this to vent because I'm alone but their is a TLDR

I know this is weak, I fucking know. But I cant think rationally despite having the knowledge and I just need to know that I have to end things and I'm not just over reacting?

When I found TRP I was already in a 3 year relationship

  • I quit all substances ( alcohol and weed and sugar )

  • I lift 7/7 days a week and have been for 6 months because I love it. Yes I am using appropriate recovery splits.

  • Push pull legs

  • Posture and stretching exercises on weekends

To this day It's now been 4 years in this relationship and their was nothing wrong with in it, At all... iv been able to maintain this LTR because before TRP a book I read basically said

  • Have fun
  • Never lose to the faceless man or he will steal your face ( Frame )
  • Dont ever whinge moan or complain
  • Be in charge
  • Strive for your own greatness
  • Be wanted by other women but dont cheat

Basically you do that and your the perfect boyfriend, it's actually pretty easy. The whole TRP on hard mode is over rated.

So here's what went down Saturday night we get invited for a drinks birthday by some new friends ( I just order coke cola cause it looks like jack Daniel's and being mr " I dont drink" makes you seem like you think your better then everyone),

Met loads of new friends men and women, everybody had a great time.

Sunday the next day

  • Girlfriend has a work Christmas party every year
  • Hairdressers only so its drama bitch mania

So basically 12 women and some gay guy comes to our apartment for pre-drinks, this is normal.

Before they leave she gets a message on her phone

" Hey it's the bartender from last night, what you said was really funny you should come out again 'creepy fuck kissy emojis' "

  • Im thinking Why did you give out your number
  • I pull her aside privately and ask her what's this
  • Tells me she has no idea she doesn't remember giving her number out
  • I say we will talk about it when she gets home
  • They leave

Now I'm thinking

What are the chances that the same night we go out, A random girl gives a bartender my girlfriends phone number? I was socializing that night so there was plenty of times she was elsewhere without me knowing.

I am not stupid.org but il play and listen

So she messages me whilst shes at this Christmas party saying " You have no right to be angry at me, I looked up this guy and hes from your home town, I bet hes your friend and your setting me up"

Quick backBack story A lot of people move from my home town come to this city, especially to do bar tending.

It is very likely someone from my home town has come to this city and is bartending. Literally irrelevant but she seems to think I no this guy and I've schemed this whole thing.

What the hell.org

I try use logic to this next level hamster

This was a futile decision on my part but here is what I said

So you are telling me, I messaged someone from my home town, Gave them your number and told them " Hey flirty text message my girlfriend, the same night we happened to go out. For what gain? what Could I possibly achieve from that"

She responds with:

  • " You are probably just trying to break up with me I know you hate me "

? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? The hamster has ascended to the astral planes.

I get a flashback from Saturday night, her friends told me that we are so good together and that literally she told them " He is the best thing to ever happen to me"

Now out of no where, 24 hours later u think I hate you ,based on zero ground, 100% for no reason.

Midnight after the party - I get woken up by 3 women they sit on the bed - They say I'm sick in the head, manipulating some fucking mind game tell my friends from my home town to message my girlfriend. - I try explain I dont know who this guy is, You can call him to confirm that I explained this.

  • They all get intense and their voices amplify and start name calling telling me shebdeserves better then me and that I'm shooting out of my league, basically high school shit from 25- 30 year old women.

  • I'm cornered in bed and TRP flashes into my head

  • Code red

  • 3 Against 1

  • No one cares about males in this world, I cant leave as they are all standing infront of me, I dont have pants on and I'm in the blanket. I ask them to leave and start recording audio on my phone

  • They try take my phone after iv asked them to leave

  • They say it's not my house it's my girlfriends

  • 100% not correct this house is under my name only but I don't mention that cause I'm just trying to hold frame.

  • Woman Attempts to grab my phone

  • Slaps to the face multiple times

  • One of them pulls this crazy bitch off me as she calls me a pig and She basically starts saying your just like my manipulating ex boyfriend all men are the same kill yourself you ugly piece of shit.

  • oh man

This cannot be happening to me what the fuck

  • I tell her this is being recorded, I've asked you to leave and now you've assaulted me, I'm just going to call the police because you aren't listening. I'm holding frame this whole time btw.

Now listen to this

"You think the police are going to do anything? I'm going to be working in the military in 4 months, you know? THE GOVERMENT, Dont act like you know anything, you just some loser your not tiger woods your just a broke piece of shit loser you aren't shit hunny.

( I'm a golf professional it's how I make money, not broke at all as you are in my beautiful home. )

I say to her

  • " You are making a mistake, you're all drunk. I have asked you to leave nicely 4 times and now you've assaulted me, if you dont leave I'll have to call the police and you'll be charged, Listen lady the military wont accept you if you've got domestic abuse charge, You need to think about that, This is not a wise decision.

( Even in this moment I'm still considering others, I know I should be crueler but I just always consider other people. )

  • " Do it call the police they have better things to fucking do then deal with your bullshit what 'oh she hit me waaaaa waaa "

  • I say " The judge will hear this you know they can make the decision for you are you sure you want to do this, I'm telling you woman your making a huge mistake "

  • " Your such a fucking loser "

calls the police

I say 3 women are in my house 1 has assaulted me I've asked them leave and I cant leave as their blocking the door

They all start yelling

  • " No one assaulted you your a manipulating piece of shit, cmon _girlfirnds name _ get your stuff you can live with me"

  • Girlfriend enters room cant even look at me starts getting out shit and throwing my shit everywhere as these woman are laughing at how ridiculous I'm being with insults and slandering my life continues

Police lady is hearing all of this and she seems to understand based on their screaming and my being calm

Police lady " Are you able to leave?

  • No their blocking me I have no pants and I cant get to the door literally sitting in bed

  • Ladys start screaming " no ones blocking you your such a fucking liar just leave"

Police are on their way phone convo ends

I say " How about we let my girlfriend talk, All you woman are doing is just harassing me, What are you trying to achieve? Is she wants to be single fine just leave that's her choice, Your making a mistake acting this way, as a mature woman surely you cant think any of this behavior is appropriate to resolve anything, If you really knew my girlfriend then why does she feel like you are fake work friends that exclude her all the time, why does she tell me shes lonely and wants better friends, You never see each other outside of work you aren't their in her dark moments, You people honestly think your her friends it's a joke, I dont have to prove anything to you, deep down you know your just spiteful aquianteces and you dont know my girlfriend like I do, not even close you barely know her at all?! "

  • " shes not your girlfriend anymore buddy"

  • Ok love

  • " Dont call me love you literally make me want to vomit"

  • " ok lady keep going keep harrssing someone and calling them ugly, you should be ashamed of yourself it's people like you that make others kill themselves "

  • " I never said you where ugly I just cant even look at you" whatever the fuck that means

Girlfriend finally talks as shes packing

Your fucking pathetic you called the police on my friends, you've ruined a good night, oo look at me I'm ( My name ) look at my abs look how much weight iv lost I go to the gym every day oo everybody fucking loves me the women must just look at me and think oh ma I'm gonna have an orgasm mmmm yeah check out my abs babe I go to the gymmmmmmm

  • I say " You need help"

She throws a shoe at me, Jumps on me and starts pounding my face as I'm blocking with my arms in front of my head

  • Ladys are laughing and pull her off saying " bahahaha ok ___ that's enough let's fucking leave him"

Girlfriends now in full rage throwing clothes in a bag taking all her possessions

Police come I show them the recording 1 woman 1 man

The first thing they say is why where you recording?

I say because it was 3 against 1, who would believe anything in this situation? I was totally alone?

" from what it sounds like you where pretty aggressive"

My jaw hits the floor

I think to myself Your only card ever is frame it's all I have as a man

I say " Look there where moments where my voice got emotional, Please take all this recording study you will see what's going on here "

  • They take statements
  • Mention that charging for assault is serious may not be the best option maybe I should think about it

My Mind

Your fucking kidding If i was a woman who got hit 3 times by 2 guys you would have your handcuffs out in seconds

  • I thank them everyone leaves

Basically didn't sleep all night sat on the couch shaking every now and then. The insults and mockery they made of my life made me second guess myself for a bit, contemplated killing myself but figured that I would be letting down my purpose in life, I'm clearly alive to contribute to this world and pursue something, growth is the meaning of life to me just as nature grows, to reject my purpose and die would be direspdctful to the divine ( I am not religious but this is just what spoke to me in my darkest hour )

I dont want to let anyone down and killing myself would be doing that so I guess I decide maybe I should write this out.

Now I guess I'm just going to be in pain for 3+ months

I dont want to feel this pain. It unbearable.

The world is so stupid, Love just means you'll sacrifice something, and when you sacrifice things it breeds hatred and hatred only causes pain.

Society is a sick fucking joke, if you've ever heard any quotes about

  • Life is suffering
  • What a cruel world
  • Such is life

You better hope you understand it before you sacrifice apart of yourself for another person.

Weak, I know.

  • I will stay in the gym
  • I will continue to build my empire

But....

QUESTION

Am I suppose to pretend shes dead to me, never look back and embrace months of pain, I dont even know how to be alone after 4 years?

Oh man, god dammit man. Fuck.

___TLDR___

  • LTR 4 years gives out number to some bartender
  • Hamsters I set her up and it's my friend
  • Later admits she may have done it
  • Gf and 3 ladys enter my house and assault my face, basically trap me, I call the police after copious amounts of insults and slander
  • Woman claim police wont do shit and say I'm whole bunch of insulting names
  • Girlfriend Makes a mockery of my life
  • Recorded the audio

Police think I'm suspicious because of my tone at moments In the audio recording, they think I was a little aggresive

  • I explain sure their where moments I was emotional and raised my voice but take the recording and you'll see
  • They take statements and all my girlfriends shit is gone, I'm not allowed to contact them for 48 hours
  • Girlfriends already trying to apologize the next morning through message app

  • WHAT THE FUCK