Since swallowing the pill I have had a lot of success with girls, especially the first years, but in the last few months I’ve been less and less interested in fucking them. Instead I’ve been focusing on myself and my friends, and I’ve been feeling better than ever. Looking good, lots of friends, etc. Incidentally I’ve been spending more time on this sub.

Still, I think it’s always sane to question what you’re doing, and I wanted to make sure I was slowly going MGTOW by choice, not because I can’t get girls anymore. So last night I invited a girl to a bar just to get the old routine going. Angie was a plate a couple of years ago, then I lost interest and stopped seeing her. Squeaky voice and a round face, enormous tits (that’s what I liked about her in the first place), short legs and a flat ass. I thought, this should be easy like two years ago, drinks at 9 right around the corner, we're back at my place at 10 to fuck and I can catch the game at 11.

Angie had a lemonade and I had beers and a full meal, so I didn’t mind paying for her thing. From the get go I make the conversation sexual just so she knows what my intentions are. Once I’m sure it’s been established, we actually talk about life and banter (I haven’t seen her in more than a year after all). I’m enjoying myself teasing her and making her laugh, but at the end of the day it’s still me entertaining her, I don’t get anything else from the interaction than the ego-trip of having this girl in the palm of my hand. We go over-schedule, it’s almost 11 when we get to my place.

In the kitchen we kiss and start undressing, tits are on display and she’s breathing heavily, I can feel she’s wet under her pants, then she says not so fast let’s enjoy the process and dresses back up. This goes on 3-4 times more. I’m missing the beginning of the game, fuck. But I’m bent on fucking her, just to get it out my system. Finally we’re naked in my bed, doing foreplay. I eat her out, her bush is untrimmed and it’s not really enjoyable. Then she reciprocates with a very quick blowjob and says she wants me inside. I tell her ‘what happened to enjoying the process now huh?’ But I’m thinking about the game so let’s get this over with. We fuck, she comes really fast. I can’t feel much with the condom and she’s put on some weight since last time, she’s got a belly now, not fat yet but she’ll get there. It feels like pounding inside a lot of flesh to feel some kind of distant pleasure in my dick. She’s making efforts though, shoving her boobs in my face etc, I’ll give her that.

After I come we talk a little, I tell her there is no fucking excuse to not trim her bush (she seemed to believe her only option was waxing it, wtf). She grabs my dick for a second round, she comes again, I don’t. It’s 1 when she leaves and I’ve missed the game completely. And I didn’t enjoy this. What could I have changed?

  • I could have made this whole process faster but then she’ll probably won’t come back (gotta give them at least some attention unless you’re Brad Pitt)
  • I could have beat off and had more pleasure than what she gave me
  • I could have pursued a hotter girl but that would have probably meant even more time spent on her to get her to bed
  • I could have gone to a hooker for just a bit more than what I spent at the bar (they are really cheap where I live), AND I would have caught the game

Angie wasn’t even a total bitch: just ordered a lemonade, was in my bed less than 3 hours after we met. It just seems.. not worth it anymore.