Summary: I am an 18 year old high school senior and have attended a conference/workshop with my school. Our workshop group was good so to keep in touch we have created a WhatsApp group. In a discussion there, a girl has texted me and we went to a date after I initiated.

It was weird as hell, but not like a regular date. You can read about what I've learn at the end of this post; I can tell you that there's nothing different here, basic TRP stuff all the way.

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If you've read the summary you know the overview. We have texted each other for 40-50 minutes, and a day later we've found out that our homes are very close so I said let's go for a coffee, she said alright. This girl was a cute one from the WhatsApp profile photo, but when we met, she was totally different. I fell for it, and I felt bad. Her WhatsApp photo was 7.5/10 and she was there as a max 5/10. I said to myself "alright, maybe she will attract me, at least it is experience" and we've spent 1.5h together.

She talked about how his family was shitty and life is weird etc but I allowed it beforehand, so that's okay. But it was not a regular date, I can tell you that. I won't go into details much since that doesn't add anything to the conversation.

Things started before going out though. She said "I have to buy cigarattes for my dad." - she is 17. This looks small, but is a huge red flag for me - it's just me, I really care about details. It means these; her father doesn't respect her much, probably that is not a "elite-ish" family and those are not good if you ask me, I wouldn't like a girl that way, but in the end, that's just me.

Then she talked about how her depression is going this way, that way and took Prozac in front of me, telling me "thanks for reminding me to take my pills". Another one. Good thing is, she is not Borderline - at least, she didn't tell me that..

I was really relaxed and confident since she was into me and she was out of my league, in a negative way. I could do better than her. So if I go out with a HB8-9 next time, I will treat her the same.

After Starbucks we walked for 10 minutes or so. She was acting weird and distant. I had already decided not to kiss her or escalate and was going to end it as friends, without telling her directly - she's a woman, she would get it. When we were going to go our homes, I said "good bye" and opened my arms. Guess what? She said "no".

She was probably afraid that I would kiss her. This shows me one thing, I portrayed myself as a "successful with girls" man. I acted like "wow, you are a big disappointment, you lil weird shit" and then turned my back and walked my way. She shouted my name a few times, only at the first one I turned the side of my face a little bit and did the "no way, you weird lil shit" face again, then kept walking and never looked back until I arrived my home.

As I'm writing this, she has messaged me "Hey". Normally I reply within 2-3 minutes, but I really feel like ignoring her - I guess this is what true alphas feel with HB8-9s, I also want to be that way, at least now I know how it happens. She then messaged me "I guess you are busy now so maybe we can talk later" - shit, we are not even English and she has written it in fucking English. Trying to be quirky and acting in an apologetic way I guess.

So yeah, thank you for reading and not giving a fuck about how badly prepared and delivered that was. I just wanted to make my first post, and not apologizing for it. It was my first date and the best date, since I wouldn't be able to learn this much even if I went out with a HB10..

Lessons Learned

  • Never trust a girl's fucking profile photo.
  • Whatever TRP says and tells is TRUE! Take action and see it for yourself.
  • Trust your gut; if the idea doesn't attract you, ignore it - I didn't kiss her.
  • You don't attract what you want. You attract what you are. - I should've known why this girl has even accepted to date me. I am ~70lbs overweight even if I don't show it much and not handsome right now. I might be a tiny bit attractive since I look masculine, but I don't even lift. If the girl was the girl in the profile photos, that would be a mistake.
  • This date was what I deserved. This girl was what I deserved. But just for now.. I shall improve myself and deserve better.
  • Do what you can do with what you have. Sometimes you just have to jump into the water without thinking. Putting yourself in hard-ish situations like that will improve you drastically and will teach you more. We were texting and I said "5:30PM @ Starbucks", it was like 4:40PM. Believe me, I was SO excited.

Thank you for reading it! I appreciate any comments :) Oh, by the way, she has sent my 2 audio records as I'm about to hit the submit button. I'll give updates on the comments section and would like to hear what kind of approach should I take against her apologizing-ish stuff.