I try my best to not pay attention the world, especially as i get older. But it's gotten to the point that i'm so out of touch with what is hip and cool, that i'm finding myself feeling alien to the world. And i'm still young.

I don't know if i'm going crazy, but i've been doing strict censorship with any material that i have exposure to. I'm finding most movies, shows unwatchable. Most books are unreadable from a fiction perspective.

Socially, before the quarantine, i'm finding most of interactions being stilted bc most guys are blinded by their fleeting passions. And inside I can't even tolerate that dudes think about creepin' behind their girls backs, and are just looking for their next instant grata in the form of a chemical high or shortlast thrill. Part of me understands that it's fun, but surely they can see the big elephant in the room in the form of a question. What's next?

And forget about dating. The quarantine is exposing us like crazy, with internet data coming out is showing us how far we've fallen from God's light.

I know that we're supposed to be on a mission and so intently focused that these mere peripheral thoughts just fall further on the outside, but please tell me i'm not alone in saying that this world is very depressing.