I've become a bit obsessed with the concepts of hormesis, both physical and mental, gradual repeat exposure to build courage, and I ruminate about this concept too much.

I feel like it's become popular to "put yourself out there" with all sorts of risks to combat social anxiety and physical weakness, but I'm finding it hard to calibrate when, where and how to do this.

For example I go to the gym and sometimes I'll push really hard for 5 minutes and tire myself out, whereas if I had done a 2-hour low-paced workout it would have been more beneficial. Sometimes it's the other way around; i'll try to do 200 little discomfort things in a random way to "live and breathe rejecting fear" but that's not very effective either.

Sometimes I have to be "persuasive" when explaining to people why I'm doing something. I'd like to avoid unnecessary "explaining" of my lifestyle choices, which adds confusion in my own head to my commitment, on top of other people creating obstacles for me if they think my commitments are dumb. In short, I have not fully internalized my mission of what risks are worth taking and which are not.