I have a really hard time not being overly competitive with other women, especially when I'm in a relationship. I am insecure about my intelligence and self-worth. I just need some direction, because I become extremely angry and annoyed by other women who I deem to be better than me. And in the end, I take it out on my boyfriend through accusations and it's unfair. It does motivate me to become a better version of myself, but that motivation seems to be short-term. Any advice? Honestly, this is a huge reason as to why I don't have that many female friends.

Edit: THANK YOU for everyone’s advice seriously. I’ll be replying to everyone soon. I’ve realized that there’s so much growing to do this year. Again thank you for taking the time to read+respond. ❤️