I graduated from my MBA program with good grades this month. I was on the soccer team at a top soccer school being one of the main players, with good grades, I am now done with school and on the job search.

I have nothing but time and my days are empty with holes where I use to be busy. I feel meaningless now. Without a job, I decided to play online blackjack where I can see real dealers play with webcams. I was up 2000 dollars in three days, and now, I am down 5,000 which is basically my whole bank. At a desperate attempt to make the money back, I kept going in and in, I was up so much at one point.

Feeling at a complete loss and basically the scum of the earth, I don't know what to do right now. I feel like crawling in a pit and dying.