I beg you, please re-read my post history. I started fucking a HB9 who broke up with her boyfriend for me after we fucked for 4 months. I became beta when she was with me because I didn't know if I could trust her or not.

Now... I barely eat, barely sleep, I've lost weight, she says she wants space, and I am in depression as she has asked for space. I stay in bed until 6 p.m and honestly am having terrible terrible thoughts in my mind.