I met her on Tinder last year and stupidly fell into a relationship with her due to scarcity. I eventually started to pull back from her seeking commitment and basically ruined both our lives over a 4 month period by going back and forth.

I finally cut the cord a few weeks back and am just trying to get over it. We were both damaged going into it (her: daddy issues, history of self-harm and scars up her arms), but thankfully I was reading TRP and starting to wake up to her fantasies. The sex was great, that's what obviously got me hooked.

I don't have to speak to her again.. but we bought 4 tickets to a Radiohead concert. Myself and a friend and herself and some guy friend (:/) who was travelling through the country.

My thinking is my head will be pretty messed up if I have to go this concert with them in 8 weeks when I'm finally moving shit on.

I've paid her the money back for 'em and said I can't do it, and now I think that's a pretty shit thing to do considering how much I fucked her head up in our relationship. I seem to just keep causing more pain between us. She's been in and out of relationships for years - this is my second relationship (at 29) and I feel like it's affecting me way more than it should.

I'm trying my best to get out of the funk - taking on a little more work, going gym, getting out, going on dates. I keep thinking maybe a period of monk mode would do me some good.

Would appreciate any insight.