Girls often lost attraction in me because I was too much of an asshole. I've read that girls feel rejected when you push too much and their conscious mind will feel like you are a jerk.

So basically girls often get mad at me, act offended and start being bitchy with me. In a way that seems really hard to get them to trust you again.

In a few words, I punish good/neutral behavior. That's something I really have to fix as it's probably why most girls I've been dating lost attraction in me.

Like there's one girl who's a 5/10 and she emotionally invested a lot by helping me on some school subjects. I wasn't sexually interested in her but she was (and probably still is) attracted to me.

Thing is my game is most "cocky and funny" game, but sometimes I lose cosciousness and start acting like an asshole totally random. I made a lot of involuntary push and pull with her, I also kino her a lot and she is really receptive.

As I said I wasn't sexually attracted to her, but now I'm in a streak of 20 days of nofap and I see her like an HB8. It's funny. Also I am a virgin and she would be perfect to lose my v-card and experience female body. She is that kind of "ugly" (actually she's not that ugly as she's feminine and not fat at least) nympho.

Thing is, I recently acted like an asshole with her and I feel like she felt rejected inside. I should obviously still hold frame, but I don't know if "holding frame" in this situation means not giving a fuck and acting like nothing happened.

It's not the first time that a girl feels offended cause I pushed too much. Nevertheless girls often came back to me like nothing happened (actually more often than not).

I somewhere read: "it's better to push too much than to pull too much" as too much alpha behavior still makes you the alpha even if the girl now feels rejected, while too much beta behavior will make you a beta and only a beta.