I'm usually extremely aloof and don't give a fuck when I'm in large group social interactions, and I'm able to command the room, fuck around, and not care too much about one person. I walk from person to person and do what I want.

However, when it comes to long one-on-one conversations or interactions with girls, I get uncomfortable. Staying, talking, and showing genuine interest in the other person is hard for me, and I always feel like acting aloof and walking away again.

I just don't feel like the type of person to have long, deep, lengthy conversations. It just doesn't feel right. I feel inferior to my own standards when I do something like that.

Am I retarded? Any advice would be appreciated.